This Girl is Losing It

Get Real

2011-04-18T21:12:00.000-07:00

Here it goes...

Honesty.

Let's get real.

I just ran my very first half marathon.

I kicked asphalt and my own butt!

However, it's time for some real serious talk or typing.

I am up on the scale.

To be honest, I need to lose 15 pounds.

I am at ???? pounds right now.
How did I do it? Well... I ate more than I should have, of course. While training for my half marathon, I started running 6 miles a week. By the time I finished my training, I was running 26 miles a week. What does one need to do to have the energy to do that?

Eat, of course... and sleep too.
Well, there are lots of things to do, actually. I'm just going to address the "eating" part of it.
I needed carbs to fuel my body for the speed runs, short runs, hill runs, and of course the long runs.
So I ate.
And ate.
I know at this point that I ate too much. I'm a novice half marathoner though, okay?

The other part of this weight gain is also the fact that I'm off my meds. I have insulin resistance due to Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome.
I used to be on Metformin, but I was taken off it around Thanksgiving last year. I think that was probably disastrous. I'm a little worried now because my younger sister just got diagnosed with diabetes a week ago. Her health, eating habits, lifestyle, and activities are different from mine, but diabetes does run in my fam. I have to see my doctor in June, so I need to drop the pounds fast and eat all the whole grains I can get my hands on.

As a serious runner, you'd think I would lose and/or maintain weight loss. I really think there's something going on with my body besides PCOS. I'm also going to have my doctor check my thyroid.
Here's my plan:

Eat and drink these!
*whole grain
*more fiber
*salad in the afternoons
*small portion at dinner
*white meat chicken
*one sweet dessert reward on date night
*water, water, water

Get rid of these!
*red meat
*candy
*white bread
*white rice

I apologize for this long post, but I need a good kick in the butt. I know I'm the only one who will do it too!

Two to Go

2011-04-14T15:19:00.000-07:00

I have two days until my half marathon.
I'm super busy, but I'm also trying to relax my mind.
I've been packing my street wear (normal human clothing) and also my running gear.
I've also been packing for the twins.
Who does this? Oh yeah, a running mommy. That's me!
If someone told me a year ago that I would be running a half marathon, I would've peed myself from laughing so hard.
Now I'm just peeing myself from nerves. Just kidding.
I am feeling my nerves kicking in though.

I just have to remember these things before Saturday:
Eat little and often.
No spicy food.
No fatty food.
Eat carbs.
No new foods.
Water, water, water!

My gear:
shoes
socks
sports bra
4 packets of Gu
water
capri tights
long tights
short sleeve tech shirt
long sleeve tech shirt
ipod
head band
gloves
dri-fit fleece hoodie

I am packing some warmer clothes because it was snowing there today. I can run in the 30's as long as it's not snowing hard or raining. I really hope that all my training and hours of work will pay off!

Four Days to Go

2011-04-12T10:17:00.000-07:00

I have four days until my first half marathon!

Last Friday I ran 10 miles.

The Fridays before that I ran a 9, 10, 11, 12, and 13.1.

Technically, I have already run a half marathon in my training.

Race days are different though.

You run faster on race day.

You also tear up your muscles a lot more.

I'm a little nervous, but I know I will finish it.

I just want to finish it strong and without any walking.

I want to put all my training to the test.

Wish me luck!

Blood, Sweat, and Tears

2011-03-09T14:22:00.000-08:00

Blood? Check.
Sweat? Check.
Tears? Check. Check.

I don't know about other runners out there, but I enjoy watching people run on TV.
I've watched marathons, tri's, and ironman competitions...
and I've cried every time I witness someone run across the finish line whether
they're first or last.

This may sound strange, but I cry.
I guess I picture myself crossing that finish line with them.
I imagine the blood, sweat, and tears that took to get there.

I have the ongoing blood blisters.
I sweat lots.
I've cried many times from pain and happiness... sometimes at the same moment.

Do you watch these races?
Do you find yourself emotional too?

No More Wind, Please

2011-03-08T10:51:00.000-08:00

Yesterday I ran 6 miles with my friend, B, and "windy" doesn't describe it.

It was so windy that when it was done, I wiped my faced and took off a few layers of dirt and dust.

It was pretty gross, but I felt like a champ.

The hills by her house are so steep that they make the hills by mine look like "a walk in the park."

The good news is that I'm no longer intimidated by them.

I am however feeling those hills in my left calf.

I'll be icing that baby all day today.

I have 5 miles tomorrow and then a rest day before 11 miles on Friday.

Wish me luck!

And the Beat Goes Running Running Running

2011-03-07T16:01:00.000-08:00

I'm so bad!
I haven't blogged since January.
Since then I've come off the no carbs diet for two weeks.
I don't have a lot of carb cravings right now, so I think it helped.
I also lost 10 pounds, which puts me at a healthy BMI again.
I ran 10 miles on Friday, and I'll be running 11 this coming Friday.
My 10K is in two weeks, and the half marathon is next month.
I'm super excited, and I can see that I can totally run the entire time.
It's such a relief to me that my body is learning how to recover from my runs quicker.
I have a friend that has been running with me on Mondays, and it's been awesome.
She pushes me to run some big hills, and they have made me faster.
It probably won't be long though until she leaves me in the dust.
She is a marathoner, and she's used to running 9 minute miles.
My average pace is 10:30's.
I'm not ashamed.
Just six months ago I thought I wouldn't be able to run again.
Here I am training for my fist half!
I hope you're all doing well.
Keep working at it!

Just Say No

2011-01-18T10:48:00.000-08:00

Part of the success with blogging is that it has helped me

be accountable to you, my readers.

I can't shove junk down my throat and feel good

keeping it from you.

I've decided that all the sugar and fat that I've eaten

during the holidays and just recently my mom's "sweet" 60th birthday bash

has taken its toll on my body, mind, and spirit.

No more.

I'm done.

I decided a couple of days ago that I need to flush out my sugar and fat cravings.

They've been bad.

I haven't gained back all the weight from my former 163 pound body,

but if i were to continue eating junk it would be easy to.

Add to that the fact that I'm no longer on any of the medications that were

keeping me from being diabetic.

Whatever I put into my body will affect my health greatly,

and also may take me back to taking 3 different medications.

I'm not willing to do that.

I've researched and done the South Beach Diet before and lost a few pounds.

I didn't stick with it, but I have to stick with it this time.

There's so much on the line now.

I am confident that with the training for my half marathon and the

encouragement to stay off medication will keep me on plan.

Today is Day 1.

It's in 3 phases.

Phase 1 is two weeks long.

It's the hardest.

No bad carbs- bread, pasta, rice, sugar.

Phase two is as long as you want to keep losing weight.

You add a little whole grain, carbs, and fruit.

Phase 3 is maintenance.

That's the hard part for me.

As long as I can be active (running, mostly) without injury, I'll be good.

The wonderful thing about sticking with the first two weeks is that it really does change my body chemistry. I no longer get the bad cravings for sugar and fat.

It's still there, but it's not as bad.

Wish me luck!

A Big, Huge, Scary Announcement!

2011-01-17T11:06:00.000-08:00

Drum roll please...

I have decided to

run

my

first

Half Marathon!

I'm running the Salt Lake City Half Marathon!

There. I said it aloud. Kind of. Good enough in blog world.

I'm nervous.
I'm scared.
I'm so totally excited!
I've worked out my training program, and I have plenty of time to be ready.
I just have to stay injury-free.

What fear are you conquering this year?

Brrrrr

2011-01-06T03:12:00.000-08:00

Yesterday I saw a really cute way I could stay warm during my early morning runs.

I may be a wimp to some or maybe all of you when I admit this, but here it goes.

I don't like being outside in super cold weather when I have to run.

Two days ago, it was 36 degrees for my first run this week.

Yesterday, it was 33 degrees. Yes, I braved it.

Here is what I wore.

long sleeve tech shirt that wicks away sweat

pink Nike fleece hoodie

fleece lined pants

knit gloves

knit hat

Every part of my body was warm within ten minutes of running except for my head, neck, and hands.

So here is what I'm contemplating on getting.

It's called the Original Buff Headwear.

Here is its description from Planet Buff.

The ORIGINAL BUFF® is a multifunctional tubular microfiber accessory that can be used for many different activities in both cold weather as well as hot weather. Our unique product will keep you warm while it is cold out, while wicking moisture and keeping them cool when it is hot out. Our lightweight, breathable and moisture wicking material not only is wind resistant, but is extremely comfortable to wear. The more you wear it, the softer your ORIGINAL BUFF® will get.
The ORIGINAL BUFF® can be worn as a neckerchief, headband, wristband, mask, hairband, balaclava, scarf, hair scrunchy, saharine, pirate cap, beanie and bandana.

Here are the three designs I'm looking at.

Which one should I get?

I'm also contemplating on getting running gloves. Mine just don't keep me warm at all.

Get Off it!

2011-01-05T05:54:00.000-08:00

I'm off!
I recently saw my doctor, and he told me that I can get off Metformin and Spironolactone!
My first reaction wasn't exactly "jumping for joy" though.
I frieked.
These two meds have helped me lose weight quickly with eating right and exercise.
Now those two things are being taken out of the equation, and I'm super scared.
What if I start to gain weight?
What if I can't lose the weight I would gain?
He said that if I keep up my running and eat right, then I should be okay.
I sure hope he's right.
I've had enough setbacks (running injuries, sickness, etc.).

I should be happy though because I did accomplish one of my goals from last year.

I'm no longer in danger of becoming diabetic, and my cholesterol is normal.

Here is my "big pat on my back!"

I go back in 6 months for new bloodwork just to make sure all is good.

Yesterday I had an awesome 4 mile run.

I'm really happy that I can run 4-5 miles with minimal pain on the balls of my feet,

but I wish I could go faster.

Energy-wise I'm doing great. I'm not struggling too bad in my last half mile.

I guess I just need to keep at it, and I can go faster.

Anyway, I'm not racing anyone but myself.

How are you doing on your runs and/or exercises? Are you running out of gas at the end or are you pushing yourself enough?

2011 Goals

2011-01-04T03:55:00.000-08:00

Time to set some goals for this year.

I'm publishing this, so I am now accountable.

Those with * means I already do and will continue to do.

1. Run 4 times a week.

2. Runner's Therapy Exercises everyday*

3. free weights 3 times a week for upper body

4. Eat fish twice a week.

5. Eat whole grains, fruit, and veggies everyday.

6. Sweets and salty snacks only on Saturdays

7. Read my scriptures for 2 hours a week.

8. Post about my journey here 4 times a week.

9. Weigh only on Saturday mornings.*

10. Be thankful for my blessings.

What are your 2011 goals?

Snow?!?!

2011-01-03T15:42:00.000-08:00

It snowed here.
Today.
I woke up at 6 a.m. ready to run.
I go outside, and this is what I saw.

Okay, so this is an exaggeration.

And it's not my yard.

Although it might as well have been.

It snows in the valley about every few years, and of course it hits

the same time I've been itching to run.

It would've been fine if the ground wasn't too wet.

I'm just too clumsy, and I'm sure I would've slipped and fallen flat on my bum.

I was so upset that I tried to pick a fight with my hubby about me not having a gym membership to one of the clubs that has an indoor running track.

I hate the treadmill, and I'm not allowed to run on it anyway.

He says to me, "Why not go on the elliptical?."

I gave him a look.

We've had this convo before.

I HATE the elliptical. Mostly because it's inside, and I've become a lover of breathing somewhat fresher air.

I say "somewhat" because I live in a city full of cars. It's not exactly mountain air I'm breathing outside.

It is outdoors though, and running outside keeps me sane.

You know that shirt that says, "Running is my therapy?"

Well... in my case... it really is.

The stresses of being a stepmother to a couple of very challenging kids, my husband's every now and then not-so-nice remarks about anything, and being a mommy to twin toddlers can take a toll on me.

In short, I need to run.

What's your "therapy?"

Cold + Rain = Me No Run Outside

2010-12-17T14:05:00.000-08:00

Whoa! I'm so proud of myself!

I can't believe that I'm posting for the second consecutive day.

It's even during the holidays!

I admit that I haven't been the best at posting

for the past 3 months, and it can mostly

be attributed to my inability to being as physically active

and/or running.

To quote Gaston's (Belle's other love interest) sidekick, I've been a little "down in the dumps."

I had a late night last night, and I was pretty tired when I woke up at 7 a.m. this morning.

However, I was still excited about the 5 miles I ran yesterday, and I didn't want to run a full 5 miles on Saturday.

So... I put on my running shoes and ran.

I decided to run only 2 miles today because 5 miles was a lot for me.

I hadn't run that much in one run since before my 10K back in August.

The second I started running it started pouring.

I think the weather knows when I'm going out for a run.

I can guarantee that it will be

cold

windy

cloudy

or will rain.

What's up with that?

It's like the cosmos are telling me not to run.

Anyway, against my doctor's advice, I went to our clubhouse and ran my 2 miles on the dreadmill.

I... was... so... bored.

I've been spoiled.

I've been running outside where the mountains are dusted with a little snow,

and don't let me forget about the occasional drivers that I sometimes have

to dodge because they're not paying attention to me and my bright red windbreaker running at them.

I really hope I didn't mess myself up again.

So far so good though.

Just the normal soreness.

I loved it when it rained on me in the summer just after a run.

Now that it's in the 40's, I'm not so much a fan of the wet stuff.

I might have to cave in and join the gym.

A few of the gyms here have indoor tracks, and I loved trying it out last summer.

That would mean that I could run in the afternoons or at night.

Do you have a gym membership?

Ahhh-mazing

2010-12-16T12:04:00.000-08:00

I'm officially done with my leg treatments, and I'm happy to say that I've been running a lot more.
Before my leg therapy, I was running about 5 miles a week with lots of pain.
Now I can run 9-13 miles a week with almost no pain.
I'm so very grateful to have found this sports injury specialist.
He basically diagnosed my problem- it's my pelvis.
He said that being pregnant with the twins really did a number on my stability,
and he has prescribed tons of pelvic strengthening exercises... FOR LIFE.
Yes, you read that right.
I need to do them for life.
Even when I had to stop running for a few weeks I noticed that I felt like I was limping while I was walking.
The doctor told me that I was tilting forward every time I walked, ran, and stood up.
That put a lot of pressure and weight on my calves, and my left calf couldn't take it.
Running that way really did it in for my left calf, and thus my injury.
He said this injury is very typical for a female mother who is also trying to lose weight by running.
I'm not 100% yet, but I'm getting there.
The temperature here ranges around 40-70 degrees throughout the week, and I love it!
Running in the cold air at first makes me want to just stay in bed in the mornings,
but I know that as soon as I warm up I will love it immediately.
I hope you've found an exercise that you love or at least can tolerate because it means you're getting closer to your goals.
I've definitely gained a few pounds from having to refrain from exercise and/or running these past 3 months, but I'm going to keep on it.
No more excuses!

Have a healthy and happy day!

Oh Boy

2010-10-29T09:17:00.000-07:00

Okay, I confess. This week could've been better.
Last Monday I did some kickboxing for 30 minutes.
I know it has been a while since I've done that kind of workout,
but my legs and buns were killing me the very next day.
I think it was the million squats and kicks I did.
Anyway, I was super sore, and took a couple of days off.
How bad was that?
This leg injury has gotten me lazy.
You may be asking, "How is she able to do kickboxing with this leg injury?"
Well... I've actually be with little to no pain in my leg if I don't jump on it. Hence the no running/hard impact on it.
It stinks.
Did I mention that Twin Boy has had a tummy virus for a week now? I called the pediatrician, and his nurse said I just have to let it run its course. Fun. NOT!
I feel awful for the little guy.
I also feel like all I ever do is change diapers.
Anyway, I woke up this morning with a little more energy than usual.
I've been up at 3 a.m. for 3 days straight from Twin Boy walking up cranky.
I told my hubby last night that it's his turn. Hehe.
I woke up this morning, and pumped the tires up on my bike!
I couldn't believe it. My tires were in good shape.
I dusted the seat off, put on the gel padded seat, and got on.
It felt great to feel the wind brush against my hair and face.
Suddenly I didn't feel like a total lazy bum.
Let's talk about my bum. Oh my goodness. I quickly remembered why riding this bike wasn't a fave.
My bum started hurting right away. Maybe I'll get used to it? What do you think?
Anyway... I had fun, and I only went for 30 minutes- up hill most of the way. Ouch.
I know I'll be feeling it tomorrow.
I'm planning on going out for an hour tomorrow. I think it'll do me some good.

Have a super scary and fun Halloween!

More Waiting

2010-10-25T14:12:00.000-07:00

Food Temptation of the Week: Candy, what else? Oh yeah... maybe all the chili and cornbread you can eat at a cook-off we're going to on Saturday.

My "jog" went really well. I had very little to no pain at all on my left leg.
This made me very excited because it has been a while since I've felt good.
I was supposed to see my chiro on Wednesday, but the building they just moved into isn't ready.
I have to wait until next Monday. I'm hoping that he'll tell me that I can start running. Even running slowly and shorter distances in the beginning would be great. We've had some rain for almost a week now, but the air is cool. I'm loving the weather. This morning I took the twins out for a walk, but I don't know how much I'll be able to do that anymore. Twin Girl REFUSES to sit in the double jogging stroller. She finds a way to climb out of her 5-point seatbelt and stands. I then take her out in fear of her falling off while I'm pushing the stroller. Then she wants me to carry her. That doesn't work. It has been quite frustrating, and I feel very guilty for trying to get in some activity while they're in the stroller a few days a week. This is what I've decided to do to help me keep my fitness up and maybe lose these 10 pounds I've packed on since being re-injured in August.

Monday: 1 hour walk, 1 hour kickboxing
Tuesday: 1 hour kickboxing, 30 minutes upper body
Wednesday: rest day
Thursday: 1 bike ride (if tires aren't flat) or 1 hour kickboxing, 30 minutes upper body
Friday: 1 hour bike ride or 1 hour kickboxing
Saturday: 1 hour bike ride or 1 hour kickboxing, 30 minutes upper body
Sunday: rest day

From One to Another

2010-10-15T15:34:00.000-07:00

People ask me, "Why do I run?."
I answer,
"Because it's addicting. It's addicting because the fat melts off your body VERY quickly.
It's addicting because
it clears my head,
the weather is getting cooler, and
it's my 'me time.'"
I just finished reading Tricia's latest post,
and I totally agree with her.
As runners, we put our bodies through a lot.
As I've told my new doc, I can block out 90% of the pain when I'm running.
He said, "That's great for a runner, but it isn't exactly safe."
We both laughed. He knew what I meant. He has been running for 30 years.
I've done all kinds of workouts, and running is definitely different.
I never thought I could do it.
I never even wanted to in the first place.
I just know that after all this therapy, I AM going to run again.
This time around, I have learned to take it slow.
Running is a race, but it's a race that I'm in charge of.
The time, personal records, speed, intensity, miles... they're up to me.

I hope you find your "love."

I "jog" two miles tomorrow and have to report the outcome with my doctor. I'll post about it next week.

Have a great weekend!

You'd Better Work!

2010-10-14T08:12:00.000-07:00

So I've been out of commission. I've been dealing with a painful leg problem since May, and I just started accepting that it's bothering me more than I was willing to admit. How much have I run since my race in August? Probably about 10 times. What was my longest run since then? Probably 4 miles. How often did I hurt after running? Probably every single time.

I went to my family physician.
He had X-rays taken.
No stress fractures.
He had an ultrasound done on my entire left leg.
No bloodclots. Thank goodness!
He sent me to a physical therapist.
At the first appointment, she said it was tendonitis.
At the second appointment, she said it was the small flexor muscles.
She couldn't show it to me on a diagram to help explain what was going on.
I lost faith in her. I stopped going.
I went back to my family physician to explain how frustrated I was.
He referred me to a chiropractor who specializes with athletes and runners.
This is what he told me.
It makes sense.
He also explained that my pelvis is totally messed up from having twins, and I need to strengthen it. My left arch is also much lower than my right, and it causes me to run basically on one leg. Crazy, but I actually understand all this.
The treatment he gave me was a specific and very painful massage (have 2 places where I have scar tissue), laser therapy, and taped up my foot.
He told me to continue my cardiovascular activity- bike, elliptical.
He told me to jog for two miles, take the tape off, and see how I feel.
For the first time since having this leg problem, I actually feel like I got answers.
I'm sorry for this long post, but getting down in writing has made me realize just how important it is for me to not lose this connection with you all. I haven't strayed from my "Get Healthy" journey. I've just been a little preoccupied.
Now time for some honesty.
I allowed this problem to get the best of me.
I have gained almost ten pounds.
I did try to get back to running after my first 10K even when it hurt.
However, I allowed the pain and not being able to continue with my regular running get to me emotionally.
I've been eating.
I've been told by my family physician and also my chiropractor to not lose the drive and enthusiam, and also fitness level by decreasing my food intake and continuing some type of cardio.
Today I am going out for a walk with my twins.

Thank you for your support and patience with me. I will be running again. I just have to be PATIENT.

Compartment syndrome (CS) is a serious condition that develops when pressure within blood vessels (perfusion pressure) drops lower than tissue pressure within a closed space (compartment) in the body. CS can be either acute or chronic and can be limb- or life- threatening condition.

A compartment is formed by muscle groups that contain nerves and blood vessels. The compartment is covered by a tough, inelastic membrane (fascia) that is not able to expand sufficiently when pressure increases within the space. The resulting syndrome is a painful condition that most often occurs following trauma, vascular injury, excessive activity, or vigorous exercise. CS most commonly occurs in the extremities such as in the arms, hands, feet, or legs, but may also occur in the buttocks or abdomen. Untreated, severe compartment syndrome can cause a series of physiologic events that may eventually lead to kidney (renal) failure and death.

Chronic compartment syndrome is most often caused by injury from vigorous exercise or overuse of a muscle group and develops most often in the legs. Although the syndrome stops when the offending activity stops, compartment pressure can stay elevated for hours afterward causing pain and numbness. This can present significant problems for endurance athletes such as runners or cyclists. The athlete with chronic compartment syndrome may complain of leg pain that occurs while exercising and that is relieved when at rest; this pain may have been experienced for weeks or months.

Still Here

2010-10-08T22:24:00.000-07:00

Hello out there! I know it seems like forever since I've posted, and I really am sorry.
I've been down (emotionally, physically) because of my leg pain.
It comes and goes. One day I think I'm totally cured and I run.
The following day bites me hard on my butt.
I'm so tired of being in pain.
I'm so close to just wrapping my leg and continue running with the pain (like I've been doing since May).
Okay, I'll listen to you and everyone here and not do that.
I'm so frustrated.
I just want to run regularly and maintain my weight loss.
It has been almost a month and a half since I've run regularly.
I've been running once or twice a week and then the pain kills me on the following days.
I've cancelled my 10K race in November. I might do the 5K, but I'm not sure.
I have been referred to see a sports therapy/kinesiologist/chiropractor next week.
I've heard from my hubby's ultra marathoner friend that the doctor is amazing.
I can't wait to get started with my recovery.
To those of you who are total champs and keeping up with your "Get healthy" journeys, I'm proud of you.
To those of you who keep checking up on me, THANK YOU. I'm not giving up. I'm still here.
I'm not running right now, so I have cut down on my food intake.
I'm working with free weights for upper body and abs.

I'll see you all here again after my doctor visit. Thanks!

Ultrasound

2010-09-14T21:36:00.000-07:00

I'm heading to my doctor's office tomorrow for an ultrasound on my left leg. I've been praying that it isn't a bloodclot that's been giving me pain since May. I've also been praying that I get answers and something can be done to get me better. All this has really gotten me down, and I can't wait to start running on Saturday. Hopefully, I'll be running without pain!

Two Weeks

2010-09-07T05:48:00.000-07:00

I finally went back to my family physician about my left leg pain.
I've been suffering from this pain since May.
It comes and goes, but it never COMPLETELY goes away.
I've probably been "less than smart" about putting this visit off, but what can I say?
I'm a runner. I love to run. I am also stubborn.
They took X-rays and found no fractures.
I'm scheduled for an ultrasound next week to rule out a bloodclot.
I started physical therapy last Friday. The PT says it's the posterior tibial tendon that has been bothering me.

I've been doing exercises, stretches, and ice massages to my leg. For the first time ever, I'm feeling hopeful that I'll soon be running free from pain!

Have a happy and healthy week!

Traitor

2010-08-27T05:39:00.000-07:00

I'm a traitor.
I'm sorry Asics, but it just felt right.
I purchased my first pair of running shoes (Asics 2150) on February 26, 2010- day after my birthday. LOL.
It has been six months and over 400 miles since then.
Runners need to replace their running shoes every 300-400 miles and even earlier if they run on rougher terrain.
How am I a traitor?
The new pair of running shoes I purchased was the Saucony Omni 8.
They just came out with the Omni 9's, but the 8's were a great fit for me.
I'm super excited to run this morning.
The owner of the store (Fleet Feet) who fitted me said he also suffers from Morton's Neuroma, but having the right orthotics and high stability shoes keeps him running without pain.
I really hope that's what I found in this new of pair of shoes.

I had an awesome 5 mile run on Tuesday morning (before I purchased the new shoes).
I'll be running 3.5 miles today.
I'll let you know how it goes.

Have a happy and healthy weekend!

Thursday- Throw it Out Day

2010-08-26T21:03:00.000-07:00

Today I cleaned.

I cleaned out the master closet, pantry, and first floor coat closet.

I cleaned them out for donations and trash.

It felt amazing!

We're going to be moving out of our wonderful home due to foreclosure in the next 5-6 months.

Yes, it's very upsetting.

We're leaving the only home my twins have known.

It's the home we took the twins to when they came from the hospital.

It's me and my husband's first home together.

I know we'll survive it.

Home is where we are as a family.

Decide Everyday

2010-08-25T05:23:00.000-07:00

I had a conversation with a friend of mine about commitment.

She has a sister who recently lost her husband through suicide.

She said her sister has to wake up every day and decide/commit to be happy.

By doing this she has endured and is succeeding in helping herself and her children to heal and cope with the loss of her husband.

I'm very blessed to not have to go through something as sad as this.

I need to look at my life and be thankful for so much.

If my friend's sister can wake up and commit to be happy and endure what she has been, then I certainly can wake up every morning and decide/commit myself to be happy and live healthy for that day.

Take baby steps.

Take it one day at a time.

It seems so simple, yet it's so difficult for so many of us.

What do you commit to today?

Let It Ride

2010-08-24T05:19:00.000-07:00

I'll be expermenting with crosstraining to run better nd faster for my 5K race in November.

Why?
Research shows that rest days (days when you take off activity altogether or do another physical activity other than running) can improve your running. You build and strengthen other muscles and therefore create a stronger body all around.

I'll be riding a stationary bike again. I'm sure my legs will thank me. I still haven't gotten anyone to ride my bike with me or teach me anyway. It's a 21 speed bike, and I never really learned how to play with the gears. You can laugh, it's okay.
It's too hot anyway to go outside and run/bike unless I'm willing to wake up at 4:30 a.m. again. I just have to wait out the heat another 2 or 3 weeks, I think.

Today's Fuel: grains for breakfast and lunch, grilled tilapia with mango salsa, sauteed green beans, 2 nectarines

Today's Activity: Insanity (first time)

Have a happy and healthy day!

A New Personal Best

2010-08-23T11:12:00.000-07:00

I reluctantly woke up this morning at 6 a.m.

disoriented,

tired,

and forgetting what I needed to do.

Then I remembered.

Today is the first day of my recommittment.

I'm committing myself to

more whole grains
more vegetables
crosstraining
breathing, breathing, breathing

The "breathing" part is to conjure up more patience for the challenges that I'm facing about

being a stay-at-home-mom to 2 yo twins
maintaining my weight loss
getting leaner and stronger core

Despite how I woke up this morning, I actually had a great run! I ran a 9:43 pace! This is definitely a new personal best!

I did fartleks. That's right. That's not a "type-o."

Fartlek is a form of road running or cross country running in which the runner, usually solo, varies the pace significantly during the run. It is usually regarded as an advanced training technique, for the experienced runner who has been using interval training to develop speed and to raise the anaerobic threshold. However, the 'average' runner can also benefit from a simplified form of Fartlek training, to develop self-awareness and to introduce variety into the training program.

I felt like I could've ran another mile, but I am just coming back from injury. I need to pace myself.

Today's Fuel: 1 cup oj, whole grains, nectarine, turkey bacon-covered shrimp and grits, steamed broccoli

Today's Activities: 3.6 mile run, upper body with free weights

Have a happy and healthy day!

Where Have I Been?

2010-08-21T11:41:00.000-07:00

Hmmm...

Where have I been?
I've been hanging out at my mom's house since Thursday, and I've been running errands.
I'm so sorry that I haven't posted about my fabulous life. Oh yes... fabulous! I just finished cleaning up an ocean of Apple Jacks cereal and milk spilled on the twins' table and chairs, not to mention especially the floor. Oh yeah, let's not forget the overnight diapers I had to change!
Twin Boy has been sleeping successfully on his toddler bed while Twin Girl has been climbing out of her crib because of pure jealousy. The solution? A toddler bed for Twin Girl.
I bought one for Twin Girl on Thursday, and to my wonderful surprise one of my best girlfriends offered me her son's toddler bed. The only stipulation was that I hand it over to her sister once she starts having kids. That'll be at least a couple of years, since she just got married and isn't interested in getting pregnant anytime soon!
How lucky was that?

I ran 3.68 miles on Friday, and boy was it hard.
I've been recuperating and healing up my shin splints (by the way, they still hurt). I think I'm just being stubborn about going to my doc for help. I know he'll tell me to stop running for a couple of weeks and probably even send me to a PT. It was SUPER HOT on Friday. I looked at the forecast before I ran at 7 a.m., and it said it was 84 degrees. To some of you, that might be nice enough. However, for me... it was dreadful. It was also humid. I drank half my water (20 ounces) before I was at 2 miles. There wasn't a lot of shade, and the sun was unforgivable. I went home and saw just how hot it was. I got a serious tan on my arms and legs. I think my run would've been more enjoyable if I had gone earlier. Why did I go so late, you ask? Well, I woke up at 4:30 a.m. on Wednesday to do some church stuff- basically didn't get enough sleep. Then on Thursday, I woke up at 6 a.m. I didn't get to bed early enough the night before. I've learned through some reading and personal experiences that you have a better run when you get a good night's sleep two nights before. Believe me, it's true. So if you're super excited the night before your race and can't fall asleep... don't worry. It's the sleep two nights before that realy counts!

Yesterday I was bad and had white rice. I thought I was over it, but I'm not. I woke up this morning feeling bloated. I'm not used to eating it anymore. I really need to have it once a week or even less and just enjoy it without the guilt. Starting Monday I'll be recommitting myself by way of eating healthier and training.

I've posted my training before, but I've changed this up a little.

Monday: 3.5 mile run, upper body
Tuesday: Insanity or bike ride and corework
Wednesday: 3.5 mile run, upper body
Thursday: Insanity or bike ride and corework
Friday: 5 mile run, upper body

Have a happy and healthy weekend!

Patience

2010-08-18T05:51:00.000-07:00

Last Saturday, I was "high" off of my first 10K race.
It has been four days since that wonderful event, and I've been trying to be patient.
I'm "patiently" waiting for my body to recover.
I'm waiting for my left leg to heal from a really bad case of shin splints.
I've been praying that I'm not suffering from one or more stress fractures there.
On a scale of 1-10 (10 being labor pains from the twins)... it was an 8 on Sunday.
Today it's more like a 4. That's wonderfully better, but not 100% better.
I was planning on doing a 3 mile run on Thursday, but I'm going to wait until Friday and do one on Saturday too.
I think it'll be okay. I'll just wrap it.
I told you that I will be doing Insanity twice a week and running 3 miles 3 times a week (Insanity in between). I still plan on doing that.
I'm signing up for a 5K in November and February. They're only $25 per event, and you get a fun sweatshirt to go with them!

I have a confession.
For the past couple of days... I've been eating cereal twice a day- breakfast and lunch.
I've been eating two fruits and then a healthy dinner. Last night, I broiled some salmon and sauteed spinach. It was delish.
I guess I'm tired of the same old tortillas and english muffins. The twins have really hit the "terrible two's." This means they're pretty frustrated because they know what they want at a time yet they don't exactly have the words to tell me or my hubby. It's very frustrating for all of us.
So... I have to practice patience.
Patience with the goal to lower my fat percentage.
Patience with the yucky stretch marks and extra skin on my belly from having twins.
Patience with the screaming and frustrated twin toddlers.
Patience with meal-planning.
Breathe, I say to myself.

How are you dealing with your "get healthy" journey?

Race Day Pics!

2010-08-17T13:49:00.000-07:00

Here are a few of the pics from my first race!

Woohoo!!!

2010-08-16T10:52:00.000-07:00

I trained.
I ran.
I finished 6.2 miles.
I finished in 65 minutes and 12 seconds.
I completed the 10K ten minutes faster than I thought I would!

I am so humbled by the efforts of all the runners last Saturday.
The run wasn't easy.
It was warmer than it has been for the past two weeks.
There was a hill 1.5 miles long. It was fun going down. It was hard going up.

All I can say is that I am proud of myself.
I am a runner.

Thank you to my hubby, twins, mom, and sisters for loving me through my training and "get healthy" journey.

Thank you to my new friends (my readers) for your support and encouraging words.

Thank you to my friends who ran with me on my training runs.

I'm sorry that this post doesn't have any pictures from the race. My mom and hubby took pics, but they haven't uploaded them yet. I'll try to get them this week.

I am super sore from the race, so I'm taking a break from running until Thursday.

Today's Fuel: grains, veggies, milk, soup, orange, apple, lean beef in soup
Today's Activity: free weights for arms and upper body

I'm looking into doing a 5K in November and definitely one in February.
Having something to train for will be the key to maintainance.

I am loved and so very blessed.
I hope you're "kicking butt" with your journey.

I'll see you here again tomorrow.

Just Another MInute?

2010-08-13T04:18:00.000-07:00

"Ask yourself: 'Can I give more?'. The answer is usually: 'Yes'."

-Paul Tergat, Kenyan professional marathoner

I ask myself this when I start feeling like I have no more to give to my run. The answer 99% of the time has been, "Yes."

No Whining

2010-08-12T04:15:00.000-07:00

"Running is a big question mark that's there each and every day. It asks you, 'Are you going to be a wimp or are you going to be strong today?'"

- Peter Maher, Canadian marathon runner

Where are you at?

2010-08-11T04:14:00.000-07:00

"In running, it doesn't matter whether you come in first, in the middle of the pack, or last. You can say, 'I have finished.' There is a lot of satisfaction in that."

-Fred Lebow, New York City Marathon co-founder

A Little Encouragment

2010-08-10T04:09:00.000-07:00

Expect results each and every day!

Satisfied

2010-08-09T13:07:00.000-07:00

I've learned to get over it.

My goal was to get to 120 pounds.

I didn't make it by the first Saturday of August 2010.

I weigh 125 pounds.

Did I ever think I would get to this point? Heck no.

Up until last January I thought I was destined to be fat, tired, and uninterested in living a healthier life.

I am now

healthier

and

happier.

I can now

run without passing out,

be more flexible, and

enjoy my life even more with my hubby and twins.

I am blessed

to have my family,

friends,

and you blog readers

to support me and cheer me on.

My first race is on Saturday.

I'm very excited and also nervous at the same time.

Monday

Fuel: eating clean with a little extra carbs

Activity: 3.5 mile run outside, corework, legs

Tuesday

Fuel: eating clean with a little extra carbs

Activity: 3.5 mile run outside, arms and upperbody with free weights

Wednesday

Fuel: eating clean with a little extra carbs

Activity: 3.5 mile run outside, corework, legs

Thursday

Fuel: eating clean with a little extra carbs

Activity: rest and at least 8 hours of sleep

Friday

Fuel: spaghetti for lunch and dinner, fruits, veggies

Activity: rest and at least 8 hours of sleep

Saturday

Fuel: pineapple rings, oj, toast, steak and eggs breakfast, light lunch, celebratory dinner

Activity: 10K race

Have a happy and healthy day!

Kiss my Face

2010-08-06T05:10:00.000-07:00

I've been so very blessed to be able to wake up so very early in the morning and run outside. The city lights are still on when I head out the door. The sun hasn't risen yet. Not even a tiny bit. We live above 95% of the city, and it's quite beautiful (urban view) in a different sense. I've been reading a lot of blogs lately, and most of those people live in more rural parts. I don't have the luxury of large fields or quiet solitude like them, but I do find some beauty in the city I live in. The temps have ranged from high 70's-low 90's. That's pretty wonderful compared to the 100's during the day.

Today I'm running my long run- 7 miles. It will be the last time I run this distance for a long time unless I decide to run another 10K in the future. I haven't decided just yet. I keep my shorter runs under 4 miles because my feet still hurt like heck when I hit 4 miles. I've been told by two doctors to stop running and take up something else, but I haven't found anything I like besides dancing. Maybe I should go into that. Hmm... There's a thought. It would have to be something I do at least 4 times a week.

I weigh myself for my "final weigh-in" tomorrow. I'm not really looking forward to it. I know I'm not down to 120 pounds. That's okay. I've come a very long way. I'm proud of my accomplishments.

*lost 38 pounds

*can run 8 miles without stopping

*run 5-6 times a week

*lift 10 pound weights for many reps

*became more flexible

*lost 21% body fat

*wear size 4 and/or small in clothing

*developed muscle tissue in legs

*toned arms

*have more energy to take care of twins

*less stressed in marriage

Friday's Fuel: eating clean

Friday's Activity: 7 mile run

Saturday's Fuel: eating clean, yummy dinner and dessert, experimenting with dried pineapple rings

Saturday's Activity: rest

Sunday's Fuel: eating clean, experimenting with dried pineapple rings

Sunday's Activity: rest

Gym Etiquette

2010-08-05T05:27:00.000-07:00

Warning!

This post has been written by an irritated and offended person.

Please forgive her rant.

Last week when I was running one of my short runs (3.5 miles) a new gym user came in to work out.

I saw her there the week before. She came in and hopped on the treadmill two feet away from mine. I was in the middle of my run, and it was very easy for me to see what she was doing. She started running. She started running at my pace. I was already at my faster pace. After running for two minutes, she slows to a pace that's too fast for walking and is bent over on to the console of the treadmill. I thought she was going to stumble on her feet and fall over. She was there for 10 minutes... hanging on to an obviously "too fast" setting on the treadmill. This has always bewildered me about some people at gyms. Why set the treadmill at that speed when it's so obvious it's too fast and you're inevitably going to fall and/or hurt yourself? So then I finish my run. I always spray the machine with disinfectant the gym provides and paper towels too. It was very clean when I gathered all of my belongings and got off of the machine. I started to stretch my legs and cool down. The minute I got off of the machine she quickly got off of hers (an identical machine like the treadmill I was on) and started disinfecting it and wiping it down AGAIN!!! I couldn't believe how rude she was! Was she for real? Yes, I was perspiring A LOT. That's what happens when you run for an extended amount of time, but I cleaned up after myself. After she did her "thorough" clean-up, she hopped on my machine and started running. Of course, she again was bent over and hung on to the machine and for her dear life. What I really wanted to do was unplug the stupid thing and see where she would land. Hehe. Okay... that was mean. Anyway... she could've waited five minutes and let me leave before she started her disinfection process. Oh, how irritated I was.

Gym Etiquette... some people have it and some people don't.

Today's Activity: 3.5 miles up that hill again, upper body with weights

Today's Fuel: clean eating

I've decided that I'm going to start Insanity on Tuesdays and Thursdays.

Core work on Tuesdays and Thursdays too.

I'll work with free weights on Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays.

I'll only run 3.5 miles on Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays.

I'll do something active and fun on Saturdays- walk with the twins, walk a mall, hike, etc.

This will begin on Monday, August 16. My 10K training will be done by then.

My stepkids leave tonight! I am so frieking happy!

Have a happy and healthy day! I'm not irritated anymore.

Slippery Slope

2010-08-04T05:02:00.000-07:00

According to recent studies, 95% of people will gain back the weight they lose within a few years, and 41% of those who attempt dieting will eventually gain back more weight than they lost.

Sad, isn't it?
I don't mean to be a "downer" today, but believe it or not, my mind has been racing with scary thoughts. I have 3 days until my "final" weigh-in. I can tell you right now that I probably won't make my goal weight by then. I'll be missing it by 5 pounds. I'm not moping about it. I've come a very long way from where I started. I'm grateful for the progress and life changes I made. I guess I've been a little worried about keeping it off.

It's a slippery slope. The slope I'm talking about is the "maintenance" portion of being at a healthy weight. I've never done it. The last time I lost 45 pounds I just met my husband, started eating what I wanted, and gradually gained 15 pounds in 10 months. It doesn't sound like a big deal, right? Well... after the wedding, I really started packing on the weight. He did too. Hehe. It was the dumb deep fryer we registered for! We were making homemade tortilla chips and roasted corn guacamole dips every weekend. Who wouldn't gain weight from that? I eventually gained back all the weight I had lost. Anyway, I've been contemplating just joining Weight Watchers to help me be more accountable to maintain it. What do you think? I could probably lose the last five pounds, make "lifetime goal," and not pay future fees if I keep myself from gaining less than 3 pounds a month. I think that's how it still works. I'm not really sure.

Yesterday's run was awesome. I have a friend who has been doing and teaching Krav Maga for a 1 1/2 years, and I outran her! I couldn't believe it either. Her training doesn't make her run crazy miles though.

Wonderful News: My stepkids are leaving early! They're leaving a 1 1/2 weeks early. I am so freaking happy!

Today's Fuel: clean eating
Today's Activity: core work, legs, 3.5 miles up that hill again

Happy day!

Insulin Resistant

2010-08-03T04:46:00.000-07:00

I was watching Dr. Oz yesterday, and I got a better understanding as to why it is difficult for me to lose weight.

I have insulin resistance.

"Insulin resistance is a condition in which the body produces insulin but does not use it properly. Insulin, a hormone made by the pancreas, helps the body use glucose for energy. Glucose is a form of sugar that is the body’s main source of energy.

The body’s digestive system breaks food down into glucose, which then travels in the bloodstream to cells throughout the body. Glucose in the blood is called blood glucose, also known as blood sugar. As the blood glucose level rises after a meal, the pancreas releases insulin to help cells take in and use the glucose.
When people are insulin resistant, their muscle, fat, and liver cells do not respond properly to insulin. As a result, their bodies need more insulin to help glucose enter cells. The pancreas tries to keep up with this increased demand for insulin by producing more. Eventually, the pancreas fails to keep up with the body’s need for insulin. Excess glucose builds up in the bloodstream, setting the stage for diabetes. Many people with insulin resistance have high levels of both glucose and insulin circulating in their blood at the same time.
Insulin resistance increases the chance of developing type 2 diabetes and heart disease. Learning about insulin resistance is the first step toward making lifestyle changes that can help prevent diabetes and other health problems." (National Diabetes Information Clearinghouse)
"Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome, or PCOS, affects women of all ages and is one of the outcomes of women with insulin resistance. Women with PCOS often report gaining an unusual amount of weight over a short period of time. Most of those women carry the extra weight around their waist. This rapid weight gain is especially frustrating since it often occurs despite a diligent diet and exercise routine. Rapid weight gain in women with PCOS is linked to insulin resistance, a sustained high level of insulin in the bloodstream. Women with PCOS related weight gain are left wondering what they can do to lose weight or stop further weight gain. Effective solutions to this problem include Diabetes related drug therapy combined with a low carbohydrate diet and exercise program." (Suite101.com)

This is something I have to live with for the rest of my life. My diet and activity has changed dramatically since this past January, but watching my carbohydrates intake is something I must be deligent about.

Today's fuel: clean eating
Today's Activity: 3.5 mile run outside, arms, upper body

Have a happy and healthy day!

No Change

2010-08-02T12:05:00.000-07:00

No loss! I'm guessing that I'm building a lot of muscle between all the running and weights. My body fat percentage went down to 29% though. That's pretty cool to see, since I was at 50% body fat when I started this journey back in January 2010. Yes, that's right. it was at 50%! Insane, huh? I am proud of this accomplishment!

Last chance runs has officially begun!

I'll be running outside between 5-6 a.m. 4 times a week this week.

I'm reserving Friday's long run (7 miles) on the treadmill.

Next week, I'll be running Monday-Wednesday at 3.5 miles outside too.

I'll rest on Thursday and Friday, and carbo load.

I've decided to add an extra carbohydrate every day next week and also fill up on turkey spaghetti on Friday for lunch and dinner.

I'll probably gain a little bit of weight next week, but it will be worth it when I run my 10K without a whole lot of problems with endurance and stamina. All the carbs will be good for me. I'll also be experimenting with dried pineapple rings too.

I ran outside this morning, and my time was about 4 minutes slower than usual.

It could be that it was already warm at 6 a.m.

It could be the extra 4 pounds I was carrying in my CamelBak.

Four minutes isn't bothering me.

I'm proud of the run I had today because despite how warm it was getting, I didn't quit and start walking. I've told myself that if I'm going to sign up for a race (and pay for it!), I'm not going to walk any of it. I think that will just push me even harder to train better.

Everyone who runs has their own opinions about running and walking. This is just mine for me.

My twins aren't sleeping as well as they have been for most of the summer.

Twin Boy has been waking up at different hours of the night. Last night my hubby (thank goodness) went into the nursery to sleep with him in the big bed at 12 a.m.

The other night I was there at 3 a.m.

It's nice that we're taking turns. I would be a zombie if we didn't do that.

I've already told Hubby that he's on twins duty the Thursday and Friday before my race. I desperately need all that sleep and rest.

Today's Fuel:

Kashi Crunch, fat free milk, turkey medallions with grilled veggies, 1 orange, 2 corn tortillas, cheddar cheese, 2 slices ham, 14 almonds

Today's Activity:

3.5 mile run, core work, leg work

Have a happy and healthy day!

Five Pounds

2010-07-30T13:28:00.000-07:00

What is body fat percentage?
It's the number that represents the percentage of your current weight that is made up of fat. Combined with your body weight and body mass index (BMI), it can provide an overall assessment of your risk for disease.

Essential Fat
We all need some fat in our bodies for them to function properly. For women, essential body fat should make up at a minimum 10 to 12 percent. However, this is not the healthiest percentage to be at, as it is too low.

Athletes
This category is for people that are very athletic, such as marathon runners and gymnasts. A healthy body fat for this category is 14 to 20 percent of the current weight.

Fitness
The next category is for those that are considered fit or in good physical shape. For this category, the percentage of body fat should fall between 21 and 24 percent.

Acceptable
If you fall in this category, your percentage of body fat is still OK, but bringing it down a bit would lower your risk for disease even more. For this category falls between 25 and 31 percentage of fat.

Obese
If your percentage of body fat is over 31 percent, you are considered obese and at a high risk for disease.

Significance
Knowing the percentage of body fat can be helpful when starting to work out. Women can gain up to 5 lbs. when they first start lifting weights. This can be discouraging, but what is happening is that they are dropping fat and gaining muscle. A normal scale will not show this progress.

If you'd like to learn more about body fat percentage, see eHow.com. The info here was taken from there. http://www.ehow.com/facts_4798778_healthy-body-fat-percentage-women.html#ixzz0vCPPhTU2

My body fat according to my scale (which is pretty accurate according to some experience in the past and testimonials from friends I know) is 30%. According to this article, I could lose a little bit more to be healthier.

Today's run went great! As usual, the balls of my feet started hurting at mile 4.

I hope you have a happy and healthy weekend.

Counting Down the Days

2010-07-29T08:58:00.000-07:00

Fourteen days to go until the stepkids are gone!

That means there are 15 days until my first 10K!

I can hardly wait for either event.

Yesterday I ran 3.5 miles. I feel guilty every time

I run these short runs.

Mainly I feel this way because my body is telling me I can run longer.

I have to remind myself that these are my short runs, and my long run (on Friday)

is soon to come. I burn about 450 calories every time I run 3.5 miles.

Have I told you how difficult it has been to lose weight at this point?

My body is fighting me every second.

I almost want to quit.

I don't mean to quit being healthy and working out.

What I mean by "quitting" is to quit anticipating when I hit 120 pounds.

What is 120 pounds anyway? I'm 125, as healthy as I've ever been in my life with the exception of shin splints and a sore knee. LOL.

Well... goals do change. I'm not holding my breath. Maybe this is something I just need to think about more. Right now I'm focusing on increasing my endurance and stamina to run well and finish the 10K in under 1 hour and ten minutes. Right now (in an air conditioned gym setting and on the treadmill at 1% incline) I can run 10:30 miles. That's ten minutes and 30 seconds per mile. Mathematically that's under 1 hour and ten minutes for the 10K. I'll be running outside early in the a.m. all week next week except for my long run. We're talking 5 a.m. runs. Yikes.

Fuel for Today: Eating clean

Activity: Kenpo P90X (first time doing it)

Have a happy and healthy day!

Feeling It

2010-07-27T11:10:00.000-07:00

I'm feeling it today.

The hill my friend and I ran up for a little over a mile is kicking my butt today. It was a beautiful day. I probably should say it was first a beautiful night because the sun hadn't risen yet when we started at 5 a.m. yesterday. When we were done running, we were greeted by a small amount of rain and a beautiful rainbow just above the mountain behind my house. It was breathtaking. I was also out of breath! LOL.

It was about 93 degrees when we started. That's probably how hot it will be when we run our first race in just a few weeks. My new Camelbak hydration belt worked awesome! It didn't budge, and it kept me hydrated. I'm so glad I bought it, and I have absolutely no "buyer's remorse" about paying $40 for it. I don't shop for myself a whole lot, and it was a necessary purchase if I want to continue being active outdoors. So today, Ibuprofen is my friend.

We had some drama here last night with my hubby and his kids. Actually... if you haven't noticed... I haven't really been posting much about the stepkids. I've purposely done that, so they didn't take over my ENTIRE life. They stress me out as it is, and this place is one of the few "safe" places for me to be me, vent, and focus on the good things. Well, like I said, there was drama. There's been drama every night (meaning something happened with one or both of the stepkids and me and hubby were arguing and fighting about it all night) for four consecutive nights. I often think his stepkids will be the end of our marriage. Last night's fight was bad. I was physically ill from talking, fighting, and arguing every night for four nights. I told him I wasn't going to talk to him about them anymore unless it concerns the twins. I told him, "I'm done." There are 17 days until they leave. I plan to not spend much time with them for those 17 days. I think we'll all be happier then.

I was so upset last night, that I slept in the twins' room, and didn't run this morning. I haven't missed a run except for the two times I got shin splints and my knee got really swollen. I'm not letting that upset me because I'm running tonight once the babies are in bed. I absolutely refuse to spend time with my husband and HIS kids right now. That might sound petty, but I need a break from them.

Today's Fuel: Eating clean even though my stress level is asking for me to snack!

Today's Activity: 3.5 mile run at night, upper body with weights

I hope you're having a happier and healthier day than I am!

19 More Days until Race Day

2010-07-26T05:44:00.000-07:00

There are 19 more days until my very first 10K race.

It's my very first race ever.

I am nervous, but I'm also very excited.

I've been training for it since April.

The only thing that really worries is me is the heat.

They're going to have hydration stations there, but I also plan on bringing this hydration belt.

I finally bought a Camelbak.

This one attaches to your waist.

I'll be filling it about halfway just so it doesn't weigh me down too much.

I don't like running with a lot of stuff on me.

I weighed myself on Saturday, and I lost half a pound.

I know that's not a lot, but it's finally going down again.

4.5 pounds to go!

Monday

Fuel: Eating clean.

Activity: 3.5 miles outside

Have a happy and healthy day!

Thank You!

2010-07-23T10:33:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I wonder if anyone besides two people are reading my posts.

In the beginning when I started this "Get Healthy Journey" and this blog,

I mainly did it

to help myself be accountable

with my food

and

with activity.

Let's be honest here.

Blogging is free. The only investment is time.

You have to spend time out of your life to write something and post it.

I didn't want to spend any money by going to WW meetings and also buying

"special food." Let's face it. My family has been cutting down on expenses for the past 2 years.

That's one of the costs of being a stay-at-home mommy to twins.

By losing at least 30 pounds so far, I've proven a few things to MYSELF.

I stress "myself" because everyone's "Get Healthy" journey is different. It's personal.

I've proven that

*I don't have to live with obesity.

*I can change what I don't like about my life.

*I can be active.

*I can control what I put in my mouth.

*I don't need an extra helping of something.

*I can run and not faint.

*I can love myself.

*I can do all this without spending a whole lot of money.

*I can't do it alone. You've been there along with my family and friends to love and support me.

There is still a lot of work to do. It doesn't stop when I reach my weight goal... whenever that will be.

I have to maintain.

I still blog to be accountable about food and activity, but I also blog for other reasons.

I blog in hopes of helping someone out there reach their "Get Healthy" goals.

I blog in hopes that I inspire someone to start.

I blog in hopes that I teach others who don't have the same weight issues learn to be understanding of how difficult it really is to get started, lose it, and maintain it.

So if you're reading this, I thank you.

Thank you for taking the time to read my posts.

Thank you for supporting me.

Friday

Fuel: Eating clean.

Activity: 3.5 miles, leg work, core work

Saturday

Fuel: Eating clean during the day, and indulging in a nice dinner and dessert at night.

Activity: rest day

Sunday

Fuel: Eating clean.

Activity: rest day

I weigh myself tomorrow, and I'll post any changes on Monday. I'd be happy if I lost even 1/2 a pound.

Have a happy and healthy weekend!

When it Becomes an Obsession

2010-07-22T12:21:00.000-07:00

I've been watching "Obsessed" on A&E.

My heart really goes out to the 3.3 million people who suffer from such debilitating problems.

The last episode I saw featured a woman who was obsessed about exercising every day.

The only time she missed a day of working out has been when she was giving birth to her children.

She was on the treadmill at least 3 hours a day.

She would spend another 9 hours doing sit-ups and other exercises.

She would only eat once a day- at 2 a.m.

She never ate with her family.

The woman was matched up with a therapist who used

cognitive therapy as well as exposure therapy.

The therapist weaned her from the treadmill and gradually had her eat and spend

time with her family.

At the end of the show, she seemed to have gotten better.

I can very easily see how someone could get obsessed with working out.

I looked at my journey here.

I've been battling being obese for at least 5 years.

I woke up one day last January and decided that I couldn't be that way anymore.

I wasn't living.

I wasn't taking care of myself.

I wasn't loving myself.

I was cutting down the life that I wanted with my husband and twins.

I started working out 5-6 days a week.

I started eating less and clean.

I've joked about how I can handle only one obsession at a time.

Living healthier is that obsession.

Watching that show has made me think about how I've been living my life these past seven months.

I'm not obsessed.

I do work out about 1.5-2 hours a day.

I only work out early in the morning when the twins are still asleep and during their naps.

I run 5-6 days a week.

I work on core, legs, and arms 5-6 days a week.

I've learned to balance making a loving home with my husband and twins.

Getting to this "balanced" stage wasn't easy.

It was hard to figure out WHEN I was going to work out.

It was hard to figure out WHEN I could indulge a little.

I guess that's why we call this a "battle."

It's a battle with food.

It's a battle with exercise.

It's a battle with OURSELVES.

I really hope that I'm helping at least one person out there with my journey.

I admire those bloggers who are so faithful in writing their posts.

I admire those people who keep on fighting.

Today's Food

Eating clean.

Today's Activity

7 miles

arms with free weights

Have a happy and healthy day!

Quick Post

2010-07-21T12:49:00.000-07:00

"It is for us to pray not for tasks equal to our powers, but for powers equal to our tasks, to go forward with a great desire forever beating at the door of our hearts as we travel toward our distant goal."

Helen Keller

Let's do this.
Let's fight the fight.
I've never heard anyone who has gotten healthy say they regret it. Have you?

Food: Eating clean.
Activity: 3.5 miles, core work, leg work

Have a happy and healthy day!

Go To Bed Earlier

2010-07-20T14:25:00.000-07:00

One of my goals for living a healthier life is to get more sleep.

Your body heals itself from your muscles to your skin as you catch some ZZZ's.

One of the ways to reach that goal is to go to bed EARLIER.

This is sooo hard for me.

Is it hard for you too?

Why is it so hard?

Is it because...

there's sooo much fun TV on every night?

I just want/need to snack?

I'm too lazy to go upstairs to go to bed?

Whatever the reasons are... I have gotten much better at sleeping earlier.

I know this because my husband even complains about how early I go to bed.

Last night I went to bed at 9:30 p.m.

It was early for me.

I woke up this morning at 6 a.m., checked the temperature outside, and I realized

it was just too hot to run outside- 93 degrees already.
I was so disgusted with the heat that I drove down to our community clubhouse and ran on the treadmill.

It would've been so easy to go back to bed.

Believe me. I wanted to.

I stepped on the treadmill.

I ran 3.5 miles.

I felt great.

I'll be doing it again tomorrow.

Food

Eating clean today.

Last night, I ate a chilled navel orange... it was so juicy and sweet!

I've developed a love of fruits!

Have a happy and healthy day!

Blah

2010-07-19T13:26:00.000-07:00

Ugh.

What is wrong with my body?

I weighed myself last Saturday, and I lost... nothing.

I feel like my body is a walking bloated balloon.

In this case... actually a running bloated balloon.

I've been running. A lot.

Is this the case of building more muscle and retaining water in them again?

This happened for two weeks about two months ago.

I hope so.

I have 18 days until my "final" weigh in.

My old friend the scale isn't a good friend lately.

I've decided this week to really monitor what I put in my mouth.

I'm watching my

*salt intake

*water consumption

*breads

*veggies

*fruits

*proteins

*cholesterol consumption

I'm running 3.5 miles 5 days a week, and a 7 mile long run on Fridays.

I know I'll lose these last few pounds.

It's just a matter of time.

Food

8 oz. orange juice

1/2 cup Kashi, 1/4 cup fat free milk

1 multigrain muffin, 1 TB reduced fat peanut butter

7 almonds

2 corn tortillas, 2 slices ham, 2 TBS salsa, 1/4 cup fat free cheese

7 almonds

1 orange

1 breaded fish filet, grilled veggies

Have a happy and healthy day!

Twenty Eight to Go!

2010-07-16T05:14:00.000-07:00

Twenty-Eight more days until freedom!

Twenty-eight more days until my stress level goes WAY down!

My stepkids are going back to their mother's house in 28 days.

I'm soooo ready for it.

Today is Friday, and I love Fridays.

It means one more day to be good and then I can indulge a little.

I have a 3 mile run scheduled this morning.

I just hope I don't pass out in the heat.

I'll be going about 9 a.m.

It's already hot at that time.

I'm trying a new route.

I'm a little nervous, but I'm starting uphill and then coming back down for a recovery run.

It should be easier than the other way around.

I have to get going, so I won't be posting my food for the weekend.

Have a happy and healthy weekend!

I'll post my weight (if it changes) here on Monday.

Take it Easy

2010-07-15T05:10:00.000-07:00

I'm supposed to run 7 miles this week for my long run,

but since my knee is still healing I'm just going to run 4 today.

I'll attempt 7 miles next week.

I've been feeling extra bloated this week because of TOM.

I hate TOM.

I LOVE the week that follows.

I'm expecting to see a nice loss that week.

I've been drinking lots of water to help not retain it.

Funny how that works, huh?

Food

1/2 cup Kashi, 1/2 cup nonfat milk

7 almonds

2 corn tortillas, 2 slices ham, salsa, 1/4 nonfat cheddar

1 orange

1 toasted multigrain muffin, 1TBS peanut butter, 1 TBS sugar free strawberry preserves

7 almonds

baked fish and veggies

Have a happy and healthy day!

Wear This

2010-07-14T15:02:00.000-07:00

It's super hot out here, and every time I run outside (even though the sun is just rising) I make sure I put on sunblock.

It's just one more extra thing I have to do before I get out the door, but

I feel a lot better knowing I'm helping prevent

skin cancer and SUNBURN.

I do actually burn despite the fact that my husband doesn't think so.

I tan easily, but I also burn.

Another thing that's a "must" for me before I run?

Lip Balm!

I know. It's silly, but I can't run without it.

It must be because I do some serious inhaling and exhaling through my mouth.

Today's run went awesome.

I'm a little sore on my left shin, but my knee is okay.

I keep icing my legs throughout the day.

I guess I'm officially a runner. Haha.

Today's Food

6 Triscuits

1/2 cup Kashi, 1/2 cup 1% milk

2 corn tortillas, 2 slices lean ham, 1/4 cup nonfat cheddar, 2 TBS hot chunky salsa

1 1/2 cups whole wheat organic cheese puffs

1 multigrain english muffin toasted, 1 TBS peanut butter

7 almonds

4 oz. grilled steak and veggies

Have a happy and healthy day!

Running In the Dark

2010-07-13T06:10:00.000-07:00

I woke up this morning at 4 a.m.

It was still dark.

Very dark, in fact.

This is the earliest I have ever woke up in my life to work out.

Trust me, it probably won't happen again any time soon.

I had to get up early for my 3 mile run because my husband had to get to work early this morning.

Let me tell you that it was hard.

It would've been so easy to stay in bed.

My run went great!

I wrapped my knee really well, and I didn't really have any pain.

I'm currently icing it right now just in case it starts to swell again.

It looked great before my run.

It was in the low 80's when I went out for my outdoor run.

There was a slight breeze that gently kissed my sweaty face.

I loved it.

After not running for four days, I was reminded how good it feels to get your heart

racing and your muscles going.

I never thought I would ever feel that way about exercise.

Who knew it could feel so good?

I made a mistake yesterday and told you that I was going to work on arms.

It's supposed to happen today.

So today, I'm working on arms and core work.

I'm laying off leg work, since my knee is still healing.

Today's Food

3 Triscuits (before run)

1/2 cup Kashi, 1/2 cup 1% milk

1 multigrain muffin, 1 TBS peanut butter

7 almonds

2 corn tortillas, 2 slices deli ham, 1 diced tomato and red onion

3 Triscuits and 1 Laughing Cow cheese wedge

small serving of chicken carbonara with peas

Thank you for your kind words of encouragement and well wishes.

Thanks to my loyal follwers and readers.

Welcome to the newest followers and readers!

Have a happy and healthy day!

What's Going On with Your Knee?

2010-07-12T11:08:00.000-07:00

Okay, please don't let me discourage you from running.

I've been posting a lot of my running injuries in my blog,

and I really don't want to discourage you from running.

This IS my honest journey to a healthier life, and

that sometimes includes the not-so-fun injuries that

can come along the way.

It includes the mistakes and pitfalls I experience.

I ran 7 miles on Thursday, and I ran the last mile in 9 minutes.

That's fast for me.

What lesson did I learn?

Hurting my a knee can be the outcome of running faster and pushing yourself after

you've already run 6 miles.

I've been doing R.I.C.E. for the past 3 days.

Rest

Ice

Compression

Elevation

I weighed myself on Saturday, and I'm at a "stand still."

No loss.

I would be frustrated, but I'm being patient.

It was before my TOM.

It probably doesn't help that my knee is swollen and retaining some fluid in it to

It's looking better today, so I will attempt running 3 miles tomorrow morning.

I'll let you know how it goes.

Eating clean today, and working on arms!

Have a happy and healthy day!

Pump It

2010-07-09T05:24:00.000-07:00

I've always enjoyed lifting weights.

I feel (and think) I'm stronger while I'm working with weights.

I know that's silly, but it's true.

Working with weights obviously strenghthen and builds your muscles, but it also

*strengthens bones (helps prevent osteporosis)

*helps you become a stronger runner

*and helps you burn calories even when you're resting (because bigger muscles burn more calories)

*helps you lose weight (when combined with cardio)

*helps speed up your metabolism

I've been working on my arms and upper body now for four months, and I still have a while until they're really toned.

However, they look a whole lot better than they used to!

Friday

1 Gu gel (before 7 mile run)

1 Gu gel (during run)

1 cup Kashi, 1/2 cup 1% milk

1 corn tortilla, 1/4 cup nonfat cheddar, 6 slices turkey, tomatoes

7 almonds

grilled chicken breast, veggies

Saturday

1 cup Kashi, 1/2 cup 1% milk

1 corn tortilla, 1/4 cup nonfat cheddar, 6 slices turkey, tomatoes

7 almonds

eat what I want for dinner and dessert

1 orange

Sunday

1 cup Kashi, 1/2 cup 1% milk

1 corn tortilla, 1/4 cup nonfat cheddar, 6 slices turkey, tomatoes

7 almonds

grilled chicken breast, veggies

1 orange

I weigh myself on Saturday, so I'll see you back here on Monday.

Hopefully, I've lost more than half a pound this time.

I'm so close to my goal, and I'd really like to make it before my deadline.

Have a happy and healthy weekend!

Vaseline, My New Friend

2010-07-08T05:51:00.000-07:00

Vaseline has become my new friend...

against chafing when I run!

I generously apply it around my armpits and where I wear my ipod case.

I learned a hard lesson about chafing and how much it hurt when I don't "lube" before a run.

That was the first time I ran 7 miles.

It's been a while ago now, but I still have a scar by my right armpit.

There are products out there specifically for preventing chafing, but a runner friend of mine suggested I use Vaseline. It's cheaper. You can even buy a generic brand from the 99 cent store!

Today's Food

1 multigrain toast, 1/2 TBS honey

1 cup Kashi, 1/2 cup 1% milk

1 cup udon noodles, shrimp, and veggies

1 orange

grilled chicken breast and veggies

Have a happy and healthy day!

Get Going Faster

2010-07-07T05:20:00.000-07:00

Looking back to how I started this journey

I've learned to develop some helpful routines to keep me going.

One of these routines is setting out my workout/running clothes and gear the night before.

When all the laundry is done, I've even set out my clothes for the entire week on Sunday night.

The benefits of having your clothes and gear ready when you wake up:

*You have less excuses about not working out/running.

*You get out the door faster.

*You're more likely to get up and get active!

*This is just me... I love putting on nice smelling and clean workout clothes! Lol.

Today's Food

1 multigrain toast, 1/2 TBS honey

1 cup Kashi, 1/2 cup 1% milk

7 almonds

2 corn tortillas, 6 slices turkey deli, 1/4 cup nonfat cheddar, tomatoes

chicken caesar salad with dressing on the side

1 orange

What do you do to get ready to work out faster?

Have a happy and healthy day!

Don't Wait Until You're Thirsty

2010-07-06T12:18:00.000-07:00

Today I ran only 3 miles, but it felt like I was running 10!

The culprit?

I didn't drink enough water before the run.

Staying hydrated the day before and hours before a run is crucial to running performance.

It's also getting super hot out here, and I need to drink more water than I used to.

Today's Food

1 Gu gel in Vanilla Bean (yum)

4 almonds, 6 Fire Roasted Tomato Triscuits

1 cup Kashi, 1/2 cup 1% milk

2 yellow corn tortillas, 1/4 cup nonfat cheddar, tomatoes, 6 slices turkey deli

7 almonds

lowfat chicken fettucini alfredo, veggies

1 Skinny Cow strawberry shortcake ice cream sandwich

1 orange

water, water, water

Have a happy and healthy day!

Woohoo! Look at Me, I'm Sandra... Oops... I'm down!

2010-07-05T05:00:00.000-07:00

Yay! I lost a whopping half pound!

I know this isn't much, but I've been suffering from some serious cravings!

I didn't give into them, but just the thought of me

weakening and possibly stuffing an extra large bag of greasy fries into my mouth

frightens me.

I don't know what it is.

Ever since January, I've been super good.

I can probably name off the two times that I "cheated" on my journey.

Once was girls' night out, and I had a strawberry cupcake.

Another time was when I had those two slices of pizza two days before my weigh-in.

Yes, I know I indulge on Saturdays, but I do that so I don't

completely fall off the wagon.

Why am I so hungry?

Am I not eating enough?

Am I not spacing out my food (time-wise)?

Am I eating too many carbs and not enough protein to keep me satisfied longer?

These are all very good questions, and I'll have to spend some time thinking about them.

This Week's Activities

Monday-3 mile run, upper body

Tuesday- 3 mile run, core, legs

Wednesday- 3 mile run, upper body

Thursday- 3 mile run, core legs

Friday- 7 miles, stretch

Today's Food

1 cup Kashi, 1/2 cup 1% milk

7 almonds

2 slices multigrain bread, 2 slices deli ham, tomatoes, 1 TBS BB spread

7 almonds

grilled fish, veggies

1 orange

Have a happy and healthy day!

Now I Eat This

2010-07-02T05:34:00.000-07:00

Now I eat this!

This is my new love affair with food.

Eating apples keeps hunger at bay.

It's full of fiber, and it doesn't raise your blood sugar too high or too quickly.

I've remembered how much I love baby bok choy!

It's used a lot in Chinese cuisine, and it's so simple to cook.

Greens are so good for you too!

I was watching Dr. Oz on Monday, and one of his Ten Commandments of Weight Loss was to only eat "4-legged animals" once a week.

That means people need to eat more

fish,

other seafood,

and chicken!

We don't really eat a lot of red meat at our house.

We probably do just once a week, and that's something I started when I was in college.

Growing up at my grandparents' house we ate fish and other seafood 90% of the time because we lived on an island!

Quinoa was a staple of ancient Andean civilizations. Today, thousands of quinoa varieties thrive, ranging in color from pale ivory to yellow and even purplish black. Most commonly considered a grain, quinoa is actually a relative of leafy green vegetables like spinach and Swiss chard.

I now eat this or brown rice. I've sworn off white rice unless I'm eating sushi.

Have you tried this bread yet?

Two slices are low in calories, and high in fiber.

I usually toast a couple of slices and smear 1 TBS of honey over them before I do my long run.

It keeps me energized for a great workout!

Researchers discovered in a green tea study that mice that received the largest amount of green tea extract (.5%) were able to run a full 30% longer than those that received no green tea extract. They also had higher levels of glycogen in their muscles and more free fatty acids in their blood, both of which are used for muscle fuel. This indicates that their bodies were sending more fuel to their muscles, where it was needed, and less to adipose tissue, where it would be stored as fat.

Another green tea benefit noted by the researchers was a significant decrease in lactic acid in the animals’ blood. Lactic acid, as any athlete will tell you, is responsible for post-workout muscle soreness. Less lactic acid translates to less soreness the day after a hefty workout.

I've learned to enjoy green tea due to its many benefits!

Have you tried this?

I can seriously eat a huge bag of this popcorn.

I love white cheddar.

I love popcorn.

I was in heaven when I discovered this bag of deliciousness.

It's healthier than a bag of greasy chips, I think.

So there you have it.

These are a few of my new food items I frequent.

I'm off to drink my cup of green tea.

But before I go, here are my weekend plans.

Friday

3 mile run

core work

1 slice multigrain toast, 1/2 TBS honey

1 cup Kashi, 1/2 cup 1% milk

7 almonds

1 orange

multigrain english muffin, 6 slices deli turkey meat, basil, 1 TBS BB spread, tomatoes

7 almonds

grilled chicken breast, 1/4 cup brown rice, and grilled veggies

Saturday

3 mile run

1 hour hula

upper body with free weights (working with 10 pound weights, a first!)

1 slice multigrain toast, 1/2 TBS honey

1 cup Kashi, 1/2 cup 1% milk

7 almonds

1 orange

multigrain english muffin, 6 slices deli turkey meat, basil, 1 TBS BB spread, tomatoes

Eat what I want for dinner- BBQ, of course!

Sunday

rest day

1 cup Kashi, 1/2 cup 1% milk

7 almonds

1 orange

2 corn tortillas, 2 slices deli ham, 1/4 cup fat free cheddar tomatoes

7 almonds

grilled tuna steaks, 1/4 cup brown rice, and grilled veggies

I hope you have a happy and healthy week!

Thanks for coming by and visiting!

My Former Love Affair with Food

2010-07-01T05:16:00.000-07:00

Yes, I confess. I've had a love affair with food.

This is a lemon passion cake from Macaroni Grill.

It's so moist. It's so tart. It's so sweet.

It's so very bad for me,

but I still love it.

This is a full serving (3 people could share it and be satisfied)

of the Cheesecake Factory's Chicken Piccata.

All that cream and butter.

Capers... and white wine sauce.

Yum.

Can you say "cholesterol?"

Okay, but I'm sorry.

There's gotta be something wrong with you if you don't like In-N-Out.

They really have the best burgers for fast food.

I was on bed rest for most of my pregnancy with the twins,

and yes... I ate this popcorn like there was no "tomorrow."

These were in my past life.

I will tell you though that sometimes I indulge in one of these on my Saturdays.

I feel absolutely no guilt in doing it either, since I've been running and working out so much.

Today's Food and Activities

7 miles to kick butt!

upper body with weights

1 cup Kashi, 1/2 cup 1% milk

7 almonds

1 orange

2 slices multigrain bread, 6 slices turkey deli, 1 TBS BB spread, basil, tomatoes

7 almonds

teriyaki marinated salmon with steamed veggies and brown rice

Have a happy and healthy day!

Why I Keep Going

2010-06-30T05:46:00.000-07:00

Why do I keep running?

Hello! There's nothing like running to burn off the fat from the many bags of fries I used to eat!

Sexual performance. Enough said.

I always feel better after a run.
(My feet may hurt, but my mind is so clear and refreshed!)

And of course, there's you, my readers and followers!
Your words of love and support really keep me going.
Thank you!

There are approximately 33 days until my "final" weigh-in.
Sometimes I ask myself, "Why the deadline?."
The answer always seems to be because I'm a planner, and I thrive on deadlines.
So far this strategy has been working for me.
I just hope I CAN make this deadline.

Today's Food and Activities

P90X yoga (only 1 hour though)

core work

legs

1 cup Kashi, 1/2 cup 1% milk

7 almonds

1 orange

2 corn tortillas, 2 slices ham deli, 1/4 fat free cheddar cheese

7 almonds

grilled salmon with sauteed green beans and garlic

Have a happy and healthy day!

Fun Run Even at 5:30 a.m.

2010-06-29T05:31:00.000-07:00

Last Saturday, I had an awesome unplanned run with my friend, G. She's a friend from high school I recently got in touch with again. Don't you just love FaceBook? She's super nice, and she is an awesome runner. She recently finished a half marathon in San Diego in the beginning of the month. She's actually the one who inspired and encouraged me to run a half marathon. As you know, I'm not going to be able to make that dream come true unless I get surgery on both feet. We ran for 3 miles while she tracked our pace with her Garmin Forerunner. I loved it! I really wish that I had one, but I don't really see how I can justify the expense (starts at $300). I'm not going to be running more than six miles after my 10K in August. Anywhere I run I can map out on mapmyrun.com. Have you tried that site yet? It's awesome. You can map out your run according to how far you want to go anywhere in the U.S. We ran at 5:30 a.m. Why so early? It's because it's so frieking hot during the day! It was a beautiful morning- 70's. I ran 7 miles the day before, and my knees were feeling it before the run. Guess what though! My feet didn't hurt! We ran downhill for 1.5 miles and then back uphill for another 1.5 miles. It was probably 4% grade. It was a really tough hill. Even she was huffing and puffing, and she's totally fit and lean. I was so proud of myself that I didn't let that little voice get the best of me. All it kept telling me was, "You need a break. Just quit." I really hate that voice.

What voices do you hear when you're trying something new or really working out hard?

That hill nearly killed me, but I didn't quit. Like Lance Armstrong said, "Pain is temporary. Quitting is forever."

Today's Food and Activities
3 mile run
upper body with weights
1 cup Kashi, 1/2 cup 1% milk
7 almonds
2 slices multigrain bread, 1 TBS BB spread, 6 slices turkey deli, basil, tomatoes
grilled pork and veggies, 1/2 cup brown rice
1 orange

Have a happy and healthy day!

Homeopathic Remedy

2010-06-28T05:23:00.000-07:00

Last week, I saw an osteopathic doctor. Along with accupuncture and micro-current therapy, he gave me a homeopathic remedy I take twice a day. It's called Ruta. I wanted to know more about it, so I did some research. I found the following info on answers.com.

"In homeopathic medicine, ruta is used as a first-aid remedy. It is used to treat strains and sprains, injuries of the cartilage and tendons around the joints, injuries to tissues lying over the bone, injuries of the periosteum, and sciatica. Ruta is often used for pain and stiffness in the hands, wrists, feet, and legs."

It sounds like my new doctor knows what he's talking about. I ran 7 miles almost pain-free on Friday. I say it was almost "pain-free" because there was a little pain around mile 4. On a scale of 1-10 (1 being no pain and 10 being like labor pains), it was a 3. Not bad after one treatment with the new doc.

I weighed myself on Saturday, and I lost 0 pounds. It must have been the birthday cake, teriyaki chicken, ribs, and white rice from the twins' birthday party. Or maybe it was the 2 slices of greasy pizza I ate just a couple of days before. Oh well. This stinks, but I know I will eventually lose the last 6 pounds. This week will be easy for me as far as eating better because I only see one bad eating session. It's on Tuesday night when I go out with my mom and sisters just before we see a midnight showing of "Eclipse." Oh yes, I am a true fan of Stephenie Meyer's Twilight saga. I read all four books in a week. I got my mom and sisters hooked on all the books even though they're absolutely not readers at all.

Today's Food and Activities
3 mile run
core work
legs
1 cup Kashi, 1/2 cup 1% milk
7 almonds
2 slices multigrain bread, 1 TBS BB spread, 6 slices turkey deli, basil, tomatoes
Dinner out with mom and sisters & small dessert!

Have a happy and healthy day!

Cutting Back

2010-06-25T05:16:00.000-07:00

So I'll never run across a finish line after running a half marathon (13.1 miles).

So I'll never run my dream of 10 miles once a week.

So what.

So this.

I've lost 37 pounds since January.

I've run 8 miles without stopping.

I fit into those tiny little running shorts in a "small!"

I used to wear a size 14, and now I'm a size 6.

I can go without dessert on a daily basis.

I enjoy eating veggies every day.

My family is eating better because of the choices I've made.

Finally, I can chase my twin toddlers around without being out of breath!

Thank you for your kind words of support and encouragement.

The past couple of days were pretty tough for me to face.

To be honest, I broke down and had 2 slices of pizza last night.

I figured that I really haven't cheated since I started this journey last January.

The slices were good, and I was over it quickly.

I have no guilt.

I don't know how Saturday's weigh-in is going to go.

My feet were pain-free yesterday.

Today was supposed to be 9 miles.

I'm not going to do it.

I have come far in this journey to give up.

Yes, it would be easy to just give up right now.

I'm going to continue running, but it will be shorter distances.

I plan to run 3 miles three times a week and run 6 miles on Fridays until my 10K race in August.

After the race, I will continue to run 3 miles three times a week and do a long run of 5 miles on Fridays.

I think my feet can handle that, and my body will continue to lose weight and/or maintain health.

I also plan on continuing my weight training and core work.

Friday's Food and Activities

6 mile run

legs

core work

Latte Gu Gel (before run)

Latte Gu Gel (during run)

1 cup Kashi, 1/2 cup 1% milk

7 almonds

1 multigrain muffin, 6 turkey slices, basil, tomatoes, 1 TBS BB spread

1 apple

grilled chicken, steamed veggies

Saturday's Food and Activities

upper body

stretch

1 cup Kashi, 1/2 cup 1% milk

7 almonds

1 multigrain muffin, 6 turkey slices, basil, tomatoes, 1 TBS BB spread

1 apple

Eat what I want for dinner!

Sunday's Food and Activities

rest day

1 cup Kashi, 1/2 cup 1% milk

7 almonds

1 multigrain muffin, 6 turkey slices, basil, tomatoes

teriyaki chicken, brown rice, veggies

I hope you have a happy and healthy weekend!

49 days and counting until my stepkids leave! LOL!

Crushed

2010-06-24T05:32:00.000-07:00

There was no more putting it off.

Yesterday I saw a new doctor for my Morton's Neuroma.

He is an osteopathic doctor.

Morton's Neuroma is basically a benign tumor at the nerve between your toe bones.

I have them in two places on both feet most likely from

*wearing heels and/or non-supportive shoes

*wearing flip flops

*using an elliptical machine (way too much)

*working out like a mad woman

*being on my feet a lot (I used to teach, and now I run around with the twins.)

*running, running, running

I got two shots on both feet last March, and they helped.

However, I need to continously get these shots if I want to stay active.

Can you say, "espensive?"

My toes feel like they're literally on fire after running about four miles.

First they're numb, and then they hurt a lot.

On a scale of 1-10, it's definitely 7-8.

Ouch.

So on to the doc visit...

He asked some great questions about my feet.

Here goes the conversaton.

Doc: Why are you here today?

Me: I have Morton's Neuroma on both feet and on two places.

Doc: When does it hurt?

Me: When I get to 4 miles running and every once in a while during the day.

Doc: When did this start?

Me: March of this year.

Doc: Is there something else you could do for exercise? Like swimming? Running is really hard on your feet.

Me: I really love running. I'm not a good swimmer at all.

Doc: How much are you running? Maybe you shouldn't run more than 4 miles.

Me: I'm actually training for a half marathon in November.

Doc: (slightly laughing) I don't think so. You shouldn't be doing something that causes so much pain.

It's your body's way of telling you to stop.

Me: (almost in tears) I was afraid you were going to say that.

I got some accupuncture on my feet and also a microcurrent treatment.

I'll let you know how it all works out.

Well... I think my hopes and dreams of running and finishing a half marathon are gone.

That dream is probably gone for good unless I get surgery to cut out the neuromas from my nerves.

That means the doctor would also have to cut off the nerves.

There's a possibility of permanent numbness to the areas affected.

Even with that surgery there is no guarantee.

I've been doing some research on it, and sometimes there are even worse problems when they cut the nerve.

I signed up and paid for my 10K in August a while ago.

There's no way I'm going to miss it.

I also have a friend who is doing it with me.

I'm so completely crushed by this news.

I've worked so hard to get to this point.

The longest run (last week on Wed.) I've done so far is 8 miles.

I've never even dreamed of running that far.

To be honest, the last half of those 8 miles was run in excruciating pain.

My toes hurt even hours after that run.

The pain was crippling.

I have no choice but to give up my dream of the half marathon, or I will risk some serious nerve damage.

I'm going to follow the doc's advice and run shorter distances.

I will see if I can run 5 miles for my long runs without pain.

I know I can run 3 without pain.

Maybe those will be my short runs 3 days a week.

Today's Food and Activities

30 minute stationary bike

30 minute walk

upper body with weights

1 cup Kashi, 1/2 cup 1% milk

7 almonds

2 slices multigrain bread, 1 TBS BB spread, 6 slices thin turkey deli, basil, tomatoes

7 almonds

grilled chicken and veggies

Thank you for your kind comments, love, and support.

I hope you're having a happy and healthy day.

Some Relief

2010-06-22T05:00:00.000-07:00

This is what I did this past weekend-

only... I didn't actually use my fingers.

I have this special gift...

I can block out unwanted "noise" without having to literally plug my ears.

When do I use this special gift?

I use it when

*I anticipate major whining and complaining from my stepdaughter.

*my mother-in-law wants to talk about the stepkids and/or their monster of a mother.

*whenever I anticipate my husband coming up with another wonderful idea to spend time together as a family (including his stepkids). Mind you I'm the one who has to spend the most time with them in the summer. Sometimes I NEED a break.

Yesterday went pretty well.

I was finally able to vent about this past weekend to my mom and sisters.

I tried to get out of the house last Saturday night, but my husband demanded that I stay and play a board game with him, his kids, and his parents.

He said he wanted to cut the "tension." He must have

been referring to the tiny blowout we had in front of his parents.

I didn't care if it did happen in front of them.

He wanted to embarass me about being so controlling by telling his nine year old daughter to stop sitting in my toddler twins' chairs. I couldn't let him do that.

I don't back down anymore.

I don't sit and take crap from anyone anymore.

I know this sounds harsh, but he sometimes treats me like his mother.

I clean up after him.

I take care of HIS kids (my stepkids).

I do all the laundry.

I do all the cooking.

I do all the cleaning.

I did everything for the twins' bday party.

I'm going to do everything for HIS daughter's birthday party.

I allowed him to take away some of my rights as a wife.

I can't do that anymore.

I love him, but I also have learned to love myself and respect myself.

It's also my duty to protect my children.

I told him that if the twins are about to get hurt or may get hurt from the actions of HIS children that I would definitely do something about it.

My stepson is moderately mentally retarded.

He is almost 13, but he has the mental capacity of a 5 year old.

I don't leave him with the twins- ever.

He lacks common sense, and in the past has done a few things that could've really hurt them when they were just infants.

My stepdaughter is defiant.

My husband has told me that she doesn't do what I ask her to do because I'm "always telling her what to do."

Well... I finally asked him why she doesn't do what he asks her to do when he's always so nice to her.

He didn't have an answer for me.

I know I'm rambling.

I guess I just needed to get this out.

I do somehow feel better.

This is my journey.

It's honest.

It's ugly.

It's funny.

It's even sometimes inspired.

Today's Food and Activities

stretch

upper body with weights

1 cup Kashi, 1/2 cup 1% milk

7 almonds

1 multigrain muffin, 2 slices ham, tomatoes, 1 TBS BB spread

7 almonds

grilled chicken and veggies

1 apple

Have a happy and healthy day!

Dig Deep

2010-06-21T10:53:00.000-07:00

I had to dig deep for motivation to get out of bed, get dressed, get on the treadmill, and run 4.5 miles this morning at 6:30 a.m.

Why?

I know exactly why.

I got very little sleep this weekend because of the twins' bday party preparations.

I got very little sleep this weekend because of late-night conversations.

My in-laws stayed at my house from Friday afternoon until Monday.

One of my stepkids was a total nightmare- we're talking major attitude,

talking back, disobeying me and hubby, and crocodile tears when she didn't get her way.

My mother-in-law is such a sucker for her antics. Me and my

hubby got into it after the bday party on Saturday in front of his parents, but he realized how much of a brat she was being by Sunday and reprimanded her in front of his mother.

On top of all this I think I caught my hubby's cold.

My breathing was a little stressed.

All in all I had an okay run.

I struggled, but I didn't quit.

I actually ran a little more than 4.5- totally accidental because I put the towel over the treadmill's controls and forgot what time I started running.

Saturday was an awesome day.

I weighed myself, and it said that I lost 1 pound.

I'm sooo happy and relieved!

I think my weigh-ins are going to go well for now because I increase my running miles every week.

I was just thinking as I drove home from the clubhouse after my struggled run that I used to struggle running for 2 minutes.

I've really come a long way, and I need to remember that.

I need to appreciate how much better I have become physically.

I bet you've become better at many things (physically and mentally) since you started your journey to health. I hope you appreciate your successes and remember them when you have to dig deep.

Have a happy and healthy day!

In the Words of...

2010-06-18T11:04:00.000-07:00

"I've always believed that if you put in the work, the results will come."~Michael Jordan

Let's put in the work!

Saturday's Food and Activities

4.5 mile run

1 cup Kashi, 1/2 cup 1% milk

7 almonds

1 multigrain muffin, 6 slices turkey deli, tomatoes, basil

Eat what I want for dinner and dessert!

Sunday's Food and Activities

rest day

4.5 mile run

1 cup Kashi, 1/2 cup 1% milk

7 almonds

1 multigrain muffin, 6 slices turkey deli, tomatoes, basil

7 almonds

grilled pork, veggies

I weigh myself on Saturday, and I'll post the results on Monday.

I hope you have a happy and healthy weekend!

Thank you to my readers and followers for your sweet and kind words of encouragement.

I couldn't do it without you!

Cross Training

2010-06-18T05:35:00.000-07:00

I think it's time to dust off my bike.

I haven't ridden my bike for almost 7 years, and I've been getting up early enough to ride my bike before it gets too hot.

There are some runners who are against cross training.

They believe the only thing that will make them run better and faster is "running."

There are some runners who believe cross training makes them even better runners.

I'm not sure what to believe just yet, since I only started running last February.

I decided to do it and see if I notice any improvements in my running.

Cross training is any exercise that's not running

cycling

sports

swimming

walking

stair climbing

elliptical machines

I've been walking for the past couple of weeks as part of my cross training,

and I feel like it has been helping.

I do feel more stable and stronger as a runner.

I also have been riding the stationary bike.

I don't enjoy it as much, since my butt aches for a couple of days afterwards.

Today's Food and Activities

3 mile run

legs

abs

1 cup Kashi, 1/2 cup 1% milk

1 multigrain muffin, 6 slices turkey deli, tomatoes, 1 TBS BB spread, basil

Vanilla Bean Gu

7 almonds!

grilled chicken and veggies

1 cup magos

Have a happy and healthy day

Clean House

2010-06-17T22:27:00.000-07:00

Oh my gosh! My posts are totally later than I'm used to!

I've been so busy this week just trying to get my house cleaned,

finish laundry,

take care of the twins,

take care of stepchild,

and grocery shop for the twins' bday party

that I keep forgetting to post early in the morning.

So here it goes.

I've been running awesome.

I've been running so awesome that I've been hungry.

I've been more hungry than I care to admit.

Last night I slept at 1 a.m. because I was watching "Valentine's Day."

It was cute, but I wouldn't watch it again.

I kept myself from snacking or eating extra food (food not planned).

I just kept thinking about the progress I've been making

and the current picture that I posted on this blog.

I didn't lose weight by snacking or eating extra.

I lost it by working out, running, lifting weights, AND eating well.

That seemed to help me.

I went to bed feeling good about resisting my cravings for junk.

Tonight I'm craving again.

The only thing I can think of is that Saturday is less than 48 hours away.

I can eat what I want then.

Today's Food and Activities

upper body with weights

1 hour walk with double stroller

1 cup Kashi, 1/2 cup 1% milk

1 cup mangos

1 multigrain english muffin, tomatoes, 1 TBS BB spread, 6 slices turkey deli, basil

lemongrass coconut chicken, brown rice, grilled veggies

1 bag light popcorn

1 WW cookies and cream ice cream bar

I know I'll have to start eating a little more as I increase my running miles.

I've been experimenting on the weekends, and I've been successful at not being hungry and still losing weight.

I hope you had a happy and healthy day!

Use It or Lose It

2010-06-16T05:27:00.000-07:00

I'm trying to develop a new way of thinking.

"Use it or lose it."

To me, this means that I get myself active and stay active while using my body the way it's meant to be used.

If I don't, then I literally lose it.

I lose all rights to a healthy heart.

I lose all rights to a good pair of efficient lungs.

I lose all rights to muscles that keep me going.

This doesn't happen overnight.

This takes a lifetime.

Today's Food and Activities

8 mile run (a first)

Tri-Berry Gu (before run)

Tri-Berry Gu (during run)

1 cup Kashi, 1/2 cup 1% milk

7 almonds

1 multigrain english muffin, 6 slices turkey, 1 TBS BB spread, basil, tomatoes

1 cup mangos

7 almonds

grilled chicken with veggies

Leg Work

2010-06-15T20:22:00.000-07:00

Some of you asked what kind of leg work I've been doing, and I thought this post might be helpful.
I used to do the "old school" leg exercises before I started reading my running book.
I've since learned that although I was doing good work, I wasn't doing the right work for my running.
Some of the leg work that I've learned to do may seem funny, but they really do work in strengthening my legs and stabilizing me as I run.
So much of the impact your body takes is absorbed by the quadriceps, so leg work (the right kind) is important. Gosh, there's so much to learn, and I've only just begun!

Here are a few exercises that I've learned. I'm sorry I don't have pics this time.

The Pendelum (10 reps each leg)
1. Stand on one leg with your shoulder blades drawn back and core braced.
2. Lift one leg straight up behind you while reaching to your toes with the opposite arm. Keep your hips level. This is super hard for me because I have bad balance, but I can tell it's working when I run.

Toe Raise (10 reps each foot)
1. Stand with hands on hips and shoulders drawn back.
2. Raise your right toes off the floor while keeping your heel on the ground and hold for five seconds.
It's silly, but this strengthens your shins and prevents shin splints!

Prone Drive (15 reps each leg)
1. Lie flat on your back with braced abs and a neutral spine, and lift both feet off the floor so your knees are bent at 90 degrees and your calves are parallel to the floor. Then, keeping one leg stable, extend your other leg forward as though you were driving off it during a run.
2. Tap your heel on the ground for an instant, then return to the start. Alternate legs for 15 reps on each side. This lengthens your hip flexors without moving your pelvis.

These exercises are from Runner's World: Complete Guide to Running.

These are just examples of what I'm doing. Please make sure you're physically ready and check with a doctor before doing any of these exercises. Okay.. now there's the disclaimer. LOL.

Just a side note: I also still do lunges and squats. Those are great for runners too!

Today's Food and Activities
Stretch
Upper body with weights
1 cup Kashi, 1/2 cup 1% milk
7 almonds
1 cup mango
1 multigrain muffin, 6 slices turkey, basil, tomatoes, 1 TBS BB spread
7 almonds
Kashi Lemongrass Chicken
1 WW Cookies and Cream ice cream bar

Have a happy and healthy day!

Seven, You're Going Down!

2010-06-14T05:38:00.000-07:00

Last Saturday, I weighed myself, and my friend the scale (this week anyway), said I lost 1 pound.

Yay! Woohoo!

I am now 127 pounds.

Seven lovely fat pounds to lose.

I've got this.

I had an awesome weekend.

I spent all day Saturday at my mom's with the twins- a nice

break from the stepkids.

My 7 mile run on Friday was amazing, uplifting, and envigorating.

Yes, running is very physical.

Running is also so very mental.

I think I've learned how to "shut off" the pains on my legs, feet, and lungs in my mind.

Today's Food and Activities

4.5 mile run

legs

abs

1 multigrain toast with 1 TBS honey

green tea with Splenda

1 cup Kashi Crunch, 1/2 cup nonfat milk

7 almonds

1 multigrain muffin, 6 slices turkey deli, 1 TBS BB spread, basil, tomatoes

7 almonds

1 cup white chicken chili

1 apple

Have a happy and healthy day!

Core Work for Runners

2010-06-11T05:00:00.000-07:00

Yay! It's Friday!

That means it's time for my long run!

Today I'm tackling 7 miles.

I can hardly believe it myself.

I have to eat some carbs before I go, and eat a package of Gu along the way.

Today's Gu is... chocolate!

I've been reading my wonderful running book, The Complete Guide to Running, and I'm learning so much.

I've read from some of your comments that some of you are trying out running for the first time or trying it again, so I thought some of this info would help you out.

I've been doing some great ab/core work from P90X for about two months now, and I do feel and see a difference with my core.

However, as I do some research about core work for runners, I've learned that I'm not strengthening the right types of abs.

Runners need to engage different core muscles to help keep from getting injured and to run faster.

Here are three that I've learned so far.

the plank

Hold it for a minute repeat ten times. This is wonderful for stabilizing muscles.

the side plank

Whoa! This one is super hard, but gets those obliques! To make them even harder: Get off of your forearms and do it with your hand.

the pelvic thrust

A little funny, but it gets your booty rock hard! Do 10-12 of these and hold for 10 seconds.

Well... I hope you enjoy these workouts.

Mat work is hard, but it works.

Today's Food and Activities

7 mile run

legs

core work

2 slices multigrain toast with 1 TBS honey

Chocolate Gu

1 cup Kashi, 1/2 cup nonfat milk

7 almonds

1 multigrain english muffin, turkey slices, 1 TBS BB spread, tomatoes, basil

Kashi Red Curry Chicken with grilled veggies

1 apple

Saturday

stretch

upper body with weights

1 cup Kashi, 1/2 cup nonfat milk

7 almonds

1 multigrain english muffin, turkey slices, 1 TBS BB spread, tomatoes, basil

Eat whatever I want for dinner and dessert!

Sunday

rest day
1 cup Kashi, 1/2 cup nonfat milk

7 almonds

1 multigrain english muffin, turkey slices, 1 TBS BB spread, tomatoes, basil

grilled chicken with grilled veggies

1 apple

I weigh myself tomorrow, and I've decided that I won't be too upset if I haven't lost weight this week.

I know the last 8 pounds will come off eventually.

I just have to stay focused on my training and eating well.

I hope you have a great weekend!

Oh... Now I Do Like It

2010-06-10T05:21:00.000-07:00

So last night I missed the monthly "Girls' Night Out."

It was actually a game night.

My husband had to go to a meeting for that camp-out he's going to with HIS son.

It really sucks.

I really needed to be out.

No one understands the place I'm in.

Whoa is me... ugh... okay.

I'm done.

I'll just have to make a couple of fun trips on Saturday.

Maybe a trip to the craft store?

Maybe a trip to a frozen yogurt place?

We'll see.

Today's Food and Activities

30 minute walk

30 minute bike ride

upper body with weights

1 cup Kashi, 1/2 cup nonfat milk

7 almonds

2 slices multigrain bread, 6 slices turkey deli,

grilled pork and onions, 1/2 cup brown rice, grilled veggies

1 apple

Yesterday's run was uplifting.

I really can't believe that I started running by walking.

Crazy, but true.

I hope those of you who have never liked running is willing to try it again.

It has really been a "God-send" to me, my life, and my weight loss.

What activities have you disliked in the past but now enjoy in your weight loss journey?

Thanks for sticking with me!

Journey to Positivity

2010-06-09T05:03:00.000-07:00

I've been reading through my recent posts, and I apologize.

I know they haven't been the most positive blogger.

You expected "honest" though, right?

I know for sure that I have the most supportive readers and followers out there in "Blog Land."

You read me vent and vent and vent.

You read on and on about my whining about my summers.

Guess what.

I'm done.

I'm so done complaining about my situation with the stepkids.

Last night I had the best sleep ever within the last four nights.

The twins slept through the night.

I was sooo glad.

I woke up renewed and rested.

I was ready to attack my short run- 3 miles.

I went to the clubhouse, and that's what I did.

I even ran the last mile in 10 minutes.

Some of you are probably thinking, "That's not very fast."

That's okay. It was fast for this formerly "non-runner" as of last February!

Sometimes I feel a little guilty that I'm running such a short distance, but I have to remember that it's all part of the training schedule.

Now I run 4 miles twice a week, 3 miles once, and a long run (this Friday is 7 miles).

I'm super excited to run today and even the 7 miles on Friday.

I have to remind myself to be positive, and things will work out fine.

Thanks, Miss Haneefa!

You have such a great attitude about everything.

Today's Food and Activities

4 mile run (a little escape... phew!)

legs

ab work

1 multigrain toast with 1 TBS honey

1 cup Kashi, 1/2 cup nonfat milk

10 almonds

1 multigrain english muffin, 6 slices turkey deli, tomatoes, basil, 1 TBS BB spread

7 almonds

6 oz. grilled salmon, 1/2 cup brown rice, 1 cup green beans

1 apple

Thanks for sticking with me!

Summer= Heat and Stress

2010-06-08T05:47:00.000-07:00

This is me.

This is me at the end of my rope... and summer has only begun.

My husband's kids are here for the summer.

Only 67 more days to go.

Ick.

I have to stay focused.

Focus on

running

weight training

being the best mom I can be for my twins

being the best wife I can be for my husband

(even if that means putting up with his kids).

Running has really been a blessing in my life.

Running is an escape when I'm

stressed

upset

when I need to make a decision about something.

Today's Food and Activities

3 mile run

upper body with weights

1 cup Kashi, 1/2 cup milk

7 almonds

2 slices multigrain bread, 6 slices turkey deli, 1 TBS BB spread, tomatoes, basil

7 almonds

1 baked chicken breast, peas, carrots, 1/2 cup quinoa

1 orange

Thanks for sticking by me!

Muscle= Water, Fat= No Water

2010-06-07T05:57:00.000-07:00

Last week I confided in a friend (who also runs) how frustrated I was last week when I ran so much, lifted weights, ate clean, and did hula for hours without losing any weight at all.

She told me that I would have to wait probably two weeks to see a weight difference because I'm gaining muscle from the weight training and running that I've been doing.

She also told me that you retain water as you gain muscle.

Huh?

No one ever told me that.

Does everyone know about this but me?

She said that muscles consist of lots of water, and fat has no water.

It made sense to me, but I wasn't totally convinced.

I waited patiently (running 16 miles, working with weights, eating clean, and core work), and I weighed myself on Saturday.

I lost one pound!

Yay for me!

To those of you who are losing more than this a week (like me when I first started this journey), let me tell you... this is HUGE for me.

Now it's really "on" for these last 8 pounds.

I totally hit a "wall" last Saturday.

It seems that my friend was definitely right.

I'm going to keep on working and fighting this fight.

Thank you for sticking by me.

Today's Activities and Food

4 mile run

legs

abs

1 whole wheat toast, 1 TBS honey

7 almonds

1 multigrain muffin, 6 slices turkey deli, tomatoes, basil, BB spread

7 almonds

1 roasted chicken breast, peas, carrots, 1/2 cup quinoa

Give a little love to yourself today.

Don't Stop! Make it Hot!

2010-06-04T06:21:00.000-07:00

Keep going.
Forget about the other times when you quit.
Don't look back.
Look ahead of you.
Look at those who have come before you.
Look within yourself and reach for the strength to go on.

To all my readers and followers,

Thank You.

Friday's Activities and Food
6 mile run (a first)
abs
3/4 cup Cheerios, 1/2 cup nonfat milk
7 almonds
2 slices whole wheat bread, 6 slices turkey, tomatoes, 1 TBS BB spread, basil
7 almonds
Thai green curry with chicken, mushrooms, bamboo shoots, red and green bell peppers

Saturday's Activities and Food
stretch
upper body with weights
3/4 cup Cheerios, 1/2 cup nonfat milk
7 almonds
2 slices whole wheat bread, 6 slices turkey, tomatoes, 1 TBS BB spread, basil
7 almonds
pepperoni pizza slice, caesar salad

Sunday's Activities and Food
rest day
3/4 cup Cheerios, 1/2 cup nonfat milk
7 almonds
2 slices whole wheat bread, 6 slices turkey, tomatoes, 1 TBS BB spread, basil
7 almonds
turkey sloppy joe's

At the Track

2010-06-03T05:58:00.000-07:00

Last night I went with my friend "B" (who is an awesome runner and pro, by the way)

to her gym to run in the indoor track.

Oh. My. Gosh.

I loved it!

I would join this gym and pay the stinkin' monthly fee only to run on it for 6 months out of the year.

Six months because it's WAY too hot to run outside in the summer

and WAY too cold to run outside most of winter.

I ran 4 miles and enjoyed the "high."

She is a much faster runner than me.

She has been running for a few years, and let me tell you she has the legs to prove it.

She has a 6 month old baby, and she's a great role model for those new mommies out there who want to get fit.

I admire her and her love for the sport.

Maybe one day I could be as inspirational to others as she is to me.

Today's Food and Activities

30 minutes on stationary bike

30 minute walk on treadmill

(cross training day)

upper body with free weights

3/4 cup Cheerios, 1/2 cup nonfat milk

7 almonds

1 multigrain eng. muffin, 6 slices turkey deli, tomatoes, 1 TBS BB spread, basil

7 almonds

grilled chicken breast and veggies

Love yourself a little more today!

Our Own Worst Enemies

2010-06-02T05:01:00.000-07:00

We can be our own worst enemies.

We can be our worst critic.

We can analyze and criticize everything we do.

We can analyze and criticize everything we DON'T do.

I'll be the first to admit my "type A" personality.

I specialize in criticizing and analyzing my activities or inactivity in the past.

I dwell on my mistakes and unfortunate things that happen that I don't even have control over.

In the past I ate to suppress feelings of

failure

sadness

loneliness

stress.

I have to confess that I've contemplated giving up altogether on this journey.

This sounds ridiculous now that I'm typing it, but it's true.

All because of a "zero loss."

That's not very intelligent on my part.

I've gone this far only to turn back.

I can't. I won't.

This fight has only begun.

Today I promise to love myself more.

I will eat to fuel my body, so that it can perform at its best- the way it was meant to perform.

I will run because I love to.

I will open my eyes and see how far I have come.

I will open my eyes and look to the future.

A future full of

happiness

and

health.

If you've been down and feeling like me,

make this promise with me.

Love yourself a little more each day.

Today I am thankful for this journey and how far I have come.

Food and Activities

4 mile run

legs

abs

3/4 cup Cheerios, 1/2 cup nonfat milk

7 almonds

1 multigrain muffin, 6 slices turkey deli, tomatoes, 1 TBS BB spread, basil

2 slices of multigrain toast with 1 TBS honey

1/2 cup pad thai with 4 oz. chicken breast, bean sprouts, 1 egg fried in Pam

1 orange

Disappointed

2010-06-01T06:43:00.000-07:00

Please forgive me for missing Monday's post.
The truth is...
I spent Memorial Day with my twins and hubby going up to the mountains for a relaxing dinner.
We also went up for some scenic drives.
We also went swimming at the pool.
It was relaxing and fun at the same time.
Let's call it our "last harrah" before his kids come for the summer.

I'm not looking forward to this summer except for spending some fun times at the pool with the twins and running my first 10k.

His kids stress me out.

Another reason that I didn't post yesterday (if I'm being honest) is that I didn't lose.
I didn't lose any weight
even though I ran 12 miles last week.
I danced 2-3 hours five days.
I worked on legs and upper body with free weights.
I worked on abs 3 days.

Why is that?

Here is what I came up with.

I may not be eating enough for all the activity I did.
I may not have been drinking enough water.
I've been sick.- congested, coughing.
I didn't get enough sleep.
I've cut down on medications to help me with PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome).

I just don't know.
I'm so sick of these last 9 pounds.
Really?
Is it that hard to get rid of these last few pounds?
I guess I've been spoiled since January that I've been losing every week.
I guess it was inevitable that I would hit another wall.
I remember hitting a wall a few weeks back when I only lost half a pound.
This stinks.

What should I do?
Well... I'm changing my 10k/Half Marathon training a bit.

Food
I'm going to eat more lean protein than carbs every day.
I won't eat breakfast before my short runs, but I'll drink some Gatorade during.
I'll eat breakfast after my short runs.
I'll eat a small carb breakfast (2 toasts with 1 TBS honey) before my long runs on Fridays.
No more white rice for me. It tastes good, but I have to really cut it out due to the fact that it turns quickly into sugar when consumed. I need to watch my sugar!
On "indulging" days... I need to control it! I can't give in to EVERY craving.
Drink MORE water. This won't be so hard. It's getting hot!

Activity
I'm going back to running 4 times a week- 3 short runs and 1 long run on Fridays.
SLEEP. SLEEP. SLEEP. I seriously need 8 hours of sleep every night to recover and lose weight.
That means I need to be in bed no later than 10:00 p.m. EVERY night. That seems reasonable, so I don't know why I haven't been doing it.
I'm going to give myself another 2 weeks to see if I can lose weight, and if not, I'm going to speak to my doctor and let him know that I want to go back to my original doses of medications without having to go back on Crestor. I don't want to do this, but maybe my body really needs to be on these two meds to help with my PCOS.
Eat more veggies!

I'm sorry for this post.
I know it's a lot to read.
However, it is my journey. It is honest. I can't lie to you.
Thank you for your kind words and loving support.

On a side note, our hula and tahitian performances went great!
Everyone had a great time, and I was really impressed that all the girls (even me) learned the three dances so quickly.

Love you all.
I'll see you here tomorrow.

Food and Activities for Today
2 mile run (short run)
upper body with free weights
3/4 cup Cheerios, 1/2 nonfat milk
7 almonds
2 slices multigrain toast, 6 slices turkey, 1/4 cup nonfat cheddar, 1 TBS BB spread
1 cup orange slices
6 oz. chicken breast with Thai red curry, mushrooms, red and green bell peppers
1/2 cup quinoa (no more white rice for me)

Still Icky

2010-05-28T06:12:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I went to hula practice and only danced the three routines twice.

I was not feeling well.

I came home, ate dinner, fed the twins, put them to bed, and went to bed myself.

But before I hit my pillow, I remembered a weird thing I was told to do by different people when you have a cough.

I got my big jar of Vicks Vaporub and slathered it on the soles of my feet.

I put some socks on, so I wouldn't ruin my sheets.

My feet felt sticky and greasy.

Weirdly enough I woke up feeling a little better.

I don't know if this Vicks thing really works.

Supposedly, there's some proof out there in England that says it does, but they don't know why.

I still have an itchy throat, but it doesn't seem as bad as the past two days.

This morning I had my two multigrain pieces of toast smeared with 1 TBS of honey.

I think the honey is making my throat feel better.

It's purely glucose and fructose, so it should give me the energy I need to run my 5 miles today.

Yes, I probably have no business running today.

It's okay. I can do this. It's only about an hour.

I also drank this 1 oz. packet of Kyani juice.

It's supposedly vitamins made with wild Alaskan blueberries.

A friend of mine who I met through my hula class sells this stuff.

She swears by it. I was hesitant to drink it because I'm on all sorts of meds, but

I thought I would give it a try.

She said it would make me feel better.

I guess we'll see about that.

I weigh myself tomorrow, and let me just say that if I haven't lost weight this week,

I'd be shocked.

I've been eating well.

I've been running.

I would have done hula about 2-3 hours 5 days this week.

My body hurts.

Today's Activities and Food

5 mile run

2 hours of hula practice

2 toasts with 1 tbs honey

3/4 cup Cheerios, 1/2 cup nonfat milk

7 almonds

1 multigrain muffin, 1 tbs BB spread, tomatoes, basil, 6 slices lean deli turkey

4 oz. grilled salmon and veggies

Saturday's Activities and Food

1 hour hula practice

hula performance

stretch

upper body with weights

3/4 cup Cheerios, 1/2 cup nonfat milk

7 almonds

1 multigrain muffin, 1 tbs BB spread, tomatoes, basil, 6 slices lean deli turkey

luau dinner and 1 piece of coconut cake

Sunday's Activities and Food

REST!!!!!

3/4 cup Cheerios, 1/2 cup nonfat milk

7 almonds

1 multigrain muffin, 1 tbs BB spread, tomatoes, basil, 6 slices lean deli turkey

1 pulled pork sandwich, 1 cup homemade mac n' cheese, caesar salad, 1 slice of lemon passion cake (hubby's bday dinner)

Have a super weekend!

I'll see you all here on Monday.

I'm too Busy for my Body

2010-05-27T13:42:00.000-07:00

Life is so crazy right now!
I woke up with a sore throat and a cough.
Ugh.
I hate being sick.
I don't have time for it.
Today I have to go out shopping for my hubby's birthday gift (putting together a gift basket of stuff he loves).
I have hula practice at 4:00.
It probably doesn't sound too busy for most of you, but here is what I got done so far for today.
*half of laundry
*worked upper body with free weights
*worked on abs
*made birthday invitations for the twins
*made birthday party guest list
I'm pooped.
I'm actually going to hula, but I'm not dancing. I'm taking notes on the three dances.
I need a break.
I'm running 5 miles tomorrow morning, and I need my body to rest up.

Food for Today
3.4 cup Cheerios, 1/2 cup nonfat milk
7 almonds
1 orange
multigrain ham and cheese sandwich, celery sticks
7 almonds
1 turkey hotdog, 1 fried egg with 1 tsp olive oil, 1 TBS ketchup, 1/2 cup quinoa
1 WW cake

Love yourself today!

Anxious

2010-05-26T08:29:00.000-07:00

These days I feel like I have no "words of wisdom" to impart to you.

I guess I'm just tired.

I'm still loving my running.

I tolerate my weight training.

I love my stretch sessions.

I'm enjoying hula too.

I just get soooo exhausted from doing all of this.

There's a luau on Saturday, so that's why I have so many hula practices this week.

I'm sure I'll feel more rested and more like myself after Saturday.

Today's Activities and Food

3.5 mile run

abs

2 hours of hula practice

2 multigrain toasts with 1 TBS honey (pre-run)

1 cup green tea

3.4 Honey Nut Cheerios, 1/2 cup nonfat milk (post-run)

3/4 cup strawberries (pre-hula)

3/4 cup strawberries (post-hula)

7 almonds

1 multigrain english muffin, tomatoes, 1 TBS BB spread, basil, 6 slices turkey deli

7 almonds

3 oz. grilled ahi tuna steak, 1.2 cup quinoa, 1 cup wasabi green beans

Love yourself a little more today!

Dear Knees, Legs, and Feet

2010-05-25T09:29:00.000-07:00

Dear Knees, Legs, and Feet,

     Please forgive me for what I'm going to put you through this week.

Monday: 3.5 mile run, 3 hours of hula practice
Tuesday: 3 hours hula practice, upper body with weights
Wednesday: 3.5 mile run, 3 hours of hula practice
Thursday: 35 minute brisk walk, upper body with weights
Friday: 5 mile run
Saturday: 3 hula performances, upper body with weights, lots of stretching

I promise to be good on Sunday and let you rest.

Meanwhile, I will feed you well.

Today's Food
1/5 cups of Honey Nut, Cheerios, 1/2 cup nonfat milk
7 almonds
1 multigrain eng. muffin, 6 slices turkey, tomatoes, 1 TBS BB spread, basil
2 slices of multigrain bread with 1 TBS honey (good carbs for a little energy before working out)
7 almonds
6 oz. ahi tuna with green beans, 1/2 cup quinoa

                                                      Love,

                                                            M

Just the Beginning

2010-05-24T08:52:00.000-07:00

Last Saturday, I weighed myself and discovered that I lost 1 pound.

I am officially in the 120's.

I haven't seen the scale do that for 6 years.

I really can't believe it.

I can't believe that I've lost over 30 pounds.

Once in a while I ask myself how it happened.

Of course I know how it happened.

I think one of my biggest tricks is that I don't think too much about how much work it's going to be.

And that's exactly what it has been.

It has been a lot of work.

However, it's only the beginning, right?

I have less than 10 pounds to lose, and I'll get there hopefully sooner rather than later.

The real issue is keeping it off.

There's no "wonder formula" as far as maintenance is concerned.

I know it'll take

activity

and

clean eating.

These are the things that are getting me there,

and these are the things that CAN keep me there.

I saw my doctor on Friday to get my test results.

I'm happy to say that all of the basic workup was great!

Cholesterol- pretty low

Sugar- normal

Liver- perfect

The doctor is weaning me off 2 of my medications and took me off Crestor.

I'm sooo glad! I don't want to be on meds for the rest of my life.

That's one of the reasons why I started this weight loss journey.

I hope you're finding some successes in your journeys too.

Here are some small ones that I've noticed.

I don't get "side stitches" when I run.

My upper body feels stronger.

There's less "back fat" back there. You know, where the straps of your bra "hugs" your back. LOL.

Have a great week, and I'll see you all here tomorrow.

Breathe

2010-05-21T05:44:00.000-07:00

I had a conversation with a friend about running that kind of left me a little annoyed.
Mind you, this particular friend recently transformed her body into a fighting machine.
She didn't have a lot of pounds to lose; however, she did turn a lot of her mass into muscle.
Simply put, she made this comment that suggested that there's no skill involved in running.

I was a little insulted, and I humbly told her that there are a lot of things involved with the body when you run for distance.

I told her that breathing, posture, strides, landing, and so forth were involved.
She didn't say much after that.

Running is fun.
Running is hard.
Running kicks major calories' butt.
Running literally melts fat away.
I love running!
Today's Activities and Food
5 miles (This is a first!)
abs
1 cup Kashi cereal, 1/2 cup nonfat milk
7 almonds
1 multigrain muffin, 6 slices turkey, tomatoes, 1 TBS B&B spread, basil leaves
7 almonds
grilled salmon caesar salad

Saturday's Activities and Food
stretch
upper body with free weights
hula practice
1 cup Kashi cereal, 1/2 cup nonfat milk
7 almonds
1 multigrain muffin, 6 slices turkey, tomatoes, 1 TBS b&B spread, basil leaves
*Eat whatever I want for dinner and dessert!

Sunday's Activities and Food
rest day
1 cup Kashi cereal, 1/2 cup nonfat milk
7 almonds
1 multigrain muffin, 6 slices turkey, tomatoes, 1 TBS B&B spread, basil leaves
7 almonds
grilled sirloin steak salad and veggies

I weigh myself on Saturday, and hopefully I'm in the 120's! I'll see you all here on Monday for the update.

Once again, thank you to my readers and followers. You're truly great friends who give me such love and support daily.

Welcome to the new readers and followers too! I promise this is one honest journey with its share of triumphs and lots of "oops" along the way.

Have a super weekend!

Back on the Bike

2010-05-20T05:31:00.000-07:00

I'm back on the bike.
The last time I was on the stationary bike was back in March when I was advised by my podiatrist not to run for almost a month.
This time, I'm on the bike for different reasons.
It's a "break" from my running.
It's part of my 10K/Half Marathon training.
It's a great exercise to strengthen my leg muscles.
I can almost hear my shins saying, "Thank you.!"

Today's Activities and Foods
40 minutes stationary bike
1 cup Kashi Crunch, 1/2 cup nonfat milk
7 almonds
1 multigrain muffin, tomatoes, 1 TBS B&B spread, 6 slices turkey, basil
7 almonds
ground turkey spaghetti, whole wheat pasta

Love yourself today!

Basket of Surprises

2010-05-19T05:21:00.000-07:00

My hubby was super thoughtful and gave me a wonderful basket full of all the stuff I love for our

wedding anniversary last Saturday.

In the basket, I found

2 bottles of sparkling fruit juices in Pomegranate and Blood Orange

5 small oriental-inspired porcelain bowls

1 tea kettle/tea cup set

a bag of wasabi snacks

and this awesome book on running!

This book has everything a novice runner like me needs!

It talks about training, diet, and preventing injuries.

I love it!

Today's Activities and Food

3.5 mile run

abs

1 cup Kashi Crunch cereal, 1/2 cup nonfat milk

7 almonds

1 multigrain muffin, tomatoes, 6 slices turkey, 1 TBS B&B spread

BLT with multigrain slices of bread

1 cup strawberries

Love yourself today!

Some Doubts

2010-05-18T05:08:00.000-07:00

Today I started having some doubts about finishing my half marathon in November.
I know that it's early.
I know this is normal.
I just need to stop thinking about it and just do it.
Most of my doubts are stemming from the fact that my feet are starting to hurt again when I run uphill.
I've been doing some hill training because from what I've been told by my friends who run and from the lovely book my husband got me for our anniversary is that "Hills strengthen you as a runner."

I'm not giving up.
I just wanted to express my fears here. After all, this is my honest journey to health.

Today's Activities and Food
35 minutes stationary bike
upper body with free weights
1 cup Kashi Crunch cereal, 1/2 cup nonfat milk
1 multigrain english muffin, tomatoes, 1 TBS B&B spread, 6 slices lean deli turkey
1 BLT with 2 slices whole grain bread
1 cup strawberries

Pretty Please with Sugar on Top and Ten Pounds to Go!

2010-05-17T10:09:00.000-07:00

All I want for Christmas is a...

Garmin Forerunner 405CX GPS Heartrate Monitor Watch!

Look at this beauty!

The Forerunner 405 CX is the evolution of GPS-enabled training.

This sleek sport watch tracks your distance, pace and heart rate,

then wirelessly sends the data to your PC for later analysis.

I know Christmas is far away, but I want and love this thing!

It would make running and figuring out how far I've gone so much easier!

I weighed myself on Saturday, and I lost 1.5 pounds!

I'm officially 10 pounds away from my weight goal!

I'm soooo happy that I could cry!

I love running.

I love running because it literally melts the fat off my jiggly parts!

Woohoo!

I've created a training schedule for me to do well on my first 10K in August and to finish a Half Marathon in November. You'll notice that my workouts will vary from time to time, but a long run will always occur on Saturdays. I found a wonderful site... Hal Higdon's 10K and Half Marathon Training Schedule. He offers a virtual trainer, but he also has free schedules online if you're interested (and insane like me) to do any of these races.

Today's Activities and Food

3.5 mile run

abs

1 cup Kashi Crunch, 1/2 cup nonfat milk

7 almonds

1 multigrain muffin, tomatoes, 6 slices turkey deli meat, 1 TBS B&B spread

Green Thai Curry with 5 oz. chicken breast, eggplant, bell peppers, and mushrooms

1/2 cup quinoa

Have a happy and healthy day!