Thursday, June 24, 2010


There was no more putting it off.
Yesterday I saw a new doctor for my Morton's Neuroma.
He is an osteopathic doctor.
Morton's Neuroma is basically a benign tumor at the nerve between your toe bones.
I have them in two places on both feet most likely from
*wearing heels and/or non-supportive shoes
*wearing flip flops
*using an elliptical machine (way too much)
*working out like a mad woman
*being on my feet a lot (I used to teach, and now I run around with the twins.)
*running, running, running
I got two shots on both feet last March, and they helped.
However, I need to continously get these shots if I want to stay active.
Can you say, "espensive?"
My toes feel like they're literally on fire after running about four miles.
First they're numb, and then they hurt a lot.
On a scale of 1-10, it's definitely 7-8.

So on to the doc visit...
He asked some great questions about my feet.
Here goes the conversaton.
Doc:  Why are you here today?
Me:  I have Morton's Neuroma on both feet and on two places.
Doc:  When does it hurt?
Me:  When I get to 4 miles running and every once in a while during the day.
Doc:  When did this start?
Me:  March of this year.
Doc:  Is there something else you could do for exercise? Like swimming? Running is really hard on your feet.
Me:  I really love running. I'm not a good swimmer at all.
Doc:  How much are you running? Maybe you shouldn't run more than 4 miles.
Me:  I'm actually training for a half marathon in November.
Doc:  (slightly laughing) I don't think so. You shouldn't be doing something that causes so much pain.
It's your body's way of telling you to stop.
Me: (almost in tears) I was afraid you were going to say that.

I got some accupuncture on my feet and also a microcurrent treatment.
I'll let you know how it all works out.

Well... I think my hopes and dreams of running and finishing a half marathon are gone.
That dream is probably gone for good unless I get surgery to cut out the neuromas from my nerves.
That means the doctor would also have to cut off the nerves.
There's a possibility of permanent numbness to the areas affected.
Even with that surgery there is no guarantee.
I've been doing some research on it, and sometimes there are even worse problems when they cut the nerve.
I signed up and paid for my 10K in August a while ago.
There's no way I'm going to miss it.
I also have a friend who is doing it with me.
I'm so completely crushed by this news.
I've worked so hard to get to this point.
The longest run (last week on Wed.) I've done so far is 8 miles.
I've never even dreamed of running that far.
To be honest, the last half of those 8 miles was run in excruciating pain.
My toes hurt even hours after that run.
The pain was crippling.
I have no choice but to give up my dream of the half marathon, or I will risk some serious nerve damage.
I'm going to follow the doc's advice and run shorter distances.
I will see if I can run 5 miles for my long runs without pain.
I know I can run 3 without pain.
Maybe those will be my short runs 3 days a week.

Today's Food and Activities
30 minute stationary bike
30 minute walk
upper body with weights
1 cup Kashi, 1/2 cup 1% milk
7 almonds
2 slices multigrain bread, 1 TBS BB spread, 6 slices thin turkey deli, basil, tomatoes
7 almonds
grilled chicken and veggies

Thank you for your kind comments, love, and support.
I hope you're having a happy and healthy day.


MissHaneefa said...

Oh no! I am so sorry to hear this it make me so sad. But you have to do what's best for your health in the long run. Your kids are still small you want to be able to run around with them in the future. I think you should go for a second opinion and if the same thing is said you will have to cut down the running.

I know that this is a strong blow to you, but you have to stay strong. You have come such a long way in such a short peiod of time.

I wish you all the best *big hug*

Debbie said...

I am so sorry and hugs to you. You are so brave to bear the pain when you run. I know how you feel, because I have problems with my knee and I walk anyway. I always pay the price later though.

Lucy BH said...

I too have Morton's Neuroma in both feet. I wonder if anyone ever gets one foot only. I was planning on a bike ride in July that averages 80 miles a day. I can't do it. I can do rides of 20 miles, but that is the most, and likely 10-15 would be better for me. Try to embrace what you can do. But pay attention to your body. Your accomplishments are huge, but healthy comes first.

Best to you -


LeeLee said...

M, I'm so sorry to hear this! I know you are sadden by this as I am to. I was looking forward to you completing your 10K! But, you have to listen to your body! I hope that you are okay! Keep your head up!!