Monday, April 19, 2010

Breaking Through

Today I am thankful for this wall.
It has opened my eyes.

I hated this wall.
It was in the way.
I hit it and fell hard on my butt last week.
I visualized myself breaking through this wall.
I thought about walking around it. (Picture me with a gallon of rocky road ice cream, a large order of cheesey carne asada drizzled nachos, and a HUGE raspberry blue Slurpee in front of the TV watching 24.)
Yeah, I knew how to live it up back in the day.
It would've been so easy to go back to that.
We've all been there, right?
Not this time for me.
I refuse to give up.
I'm done wearing my fat suit.
I'm trading it in for a leaner, healthier me.
So I'm breaking through this wall. It'll take some time, but I'm doing it.
I weighed myself on Saturday, and I lost 1.5 pounds.
I'm very happy about this loss.
My running has been paying off.
My scale has made a difference.
You can do this too.
It's a slow process.
Didn't putting on all this weight take a while too?
I didn't just wake up with an extra 45 pounds on my body one day.
It was one bag of chips and fries at a time. (And boy, were they good.)
I'm not going to sit here and lie to you and tell you that I still don't have those cravings.
I do.
I set aside one day a week to have whatever I want.
I've become smarter about that day too.
I binged on so much junk on some of those "special days" that I went running to the porcelain throne at 2 a.m. the next day.
My body has been rejecting the greasy, fried food. We're talking about cramping and sweating.
Now I think really hard about the junk I put in my body that day.
I haven't thrown up whatever I've eaten that day in a while. I guess I'm learning.
This is all a learning process.
I'm learning to love myself a little more each day.
Have you started this journey?
Have you started loving yourself a little more each day through the choices you make?

Thank you to my newest readers and followers.
Thank you to those who have been reading and following me for a while. Your words inspire me.

Today's Food and Activities
40 minute run
Day 1 of Week 1 P90X (I'll be posting my Day 1 pic soon.)
1 cup Go Lean cereal, 1/2 cup 1% milk
7 almonds
grilled chicken and veggies
1 apple
7 almonds
grilled chicken, veggies, 1/2 cup white rice

Have a happy and healthy day!

5 comments:

MissHaneefa said...

Great work and fantastic mind set. You are getting so close!

Debbie said...

Congrats you are doing great. I love the colors on your blog.

Liz said...

Thank you for sharing this journey with us. I am sick of wearing my fat suit, too and found my way over here looking for good meal plans to help. You're awesome! Keep grinding it out and melting it off!

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Girlie said...

You probably don't even know that the line "You can do this too" really hit me! I can do this. I can do this.