Breaking Through

Today I am thankful for this wall.

It has opened my eyes.

I hated this wall.

It was in the way.

I hit it and fell hard on my butt last week.

I visualized myself breaking through this wall.

I thought about walking around it. (Picture me with a gallon of rocky road ice cream, a large order of cheesey carne asada drizzled nachos, and a HUGE raspberry blue Slurpee in front of the TV watching 24.)

Yeah, I knew how to live it up back in the day.

It would've been so easy to go back to that.

We've all been there, right?

Not this time for me.

I refuse to give up.

I'm done wearing my fat suit.

I'm trading it in for a leaner, healthier me.

So I'm breaking through this wall. It'll take some time, but I'm doing it.

I weighed myself on Saturday, and I lost 1.5 pounds.

I'm very happy about this loss.

My running has been paying off.

My scale has made a difference.

You can do this too.
It's a slow process.
Didn't putting on all this weight take a while too?
I didn't just wake up with an extra 45 pounds on my body one day.
It was one bag of chips and fries at a time. (And boy, were they good.)
I'm not going to sit here and lie to you and tell you that I still don't have those cravings.
I do.
I set aside one day a week to have whatever I want.
I've become smarter about that day too.
I binged on so much junk on some of those "special days" that I went running to the porcelain throne at 2 a.m. the next day.
My body has been rejecting the greasy, fried food. We're talking about cramping and sweating.
Now I think really hard about the junk I put in my body that day.
I haven't thrown up whatever I've eaten that day in a while. I guess I'm learning.
This is all a learning process.
I'm learning to love myself a little more each day.
Have you started this journey?
Have you started loving yourself a little more each day through the choices you make?

Thank you to my newest readers and followers.
Thank you to those who have been reading and following me for a while. Your words inspire me.

Today's Food and Activities
40 minute run
Day 1 of Week 1 P90X (I'll be posting my Day 1 pic soon.)
1 cup Go Lean cereal, 1/2 cup 1% milk
7 almonds
grilled chicken and veggies
1 apple
7 almonds
grilled chicken, veggies, 1/2 cup white rice

Have a happy and healthy day!