Thursday, July 22, 2010

When it Becomes an Obsession

I've been watching "Obsessed" on A&E.
My heart really goes out to the 3.3 million people who suffer from such debilitating problems.

The last episode I saw featured a woman who was obsessed about exercising every day.
The only time she missed a day of working out has been when she was giving birth to her children.
She was on the treadmill at least 3 hours a day.
She would spend another 9 hours doing sit-ups and other exercises.
She would only eat once a day- at 2 a.m.
She never ate with her family.
The woman was matched up with a therapist who used
cognitive therapy as well as exposure therapy.
The therapist weaned her from the treadmill and gradually had her eat and spend
time with her family.
At the end of the show, she seemed to have gotten better.

I can very easily see how someone could get obsessed with working out.
I looked at my journey here.
I've been battling being obese for at least 5 years.
I woke up one day last January and decided that I couldn't be that way anymore.
I wasn't living.
I wasn't taking care of myself.
I wasn't loving myself.
I was cutting down the life that I wanted with my husband and twins.
I started working out 5-6 days a week.
I started eating less and clean.
I've joked about how I can handle only one obsession at a time.
Living healthier is that obsession.
Watching that show has made me think about how I've been living my life these past seven months.
I'm not obsessed.
I do work out about 1.5-2 hours a day.
I only work out early in the morning when the twins are still asleep and during their naps.
I run 5-6 days a week.
I work on core, legs, and arms 5-6 days a week.
I've learned to balance making a loving home with my husband and twins.

Getting to this "balanced" stage wasn't easy.
It was hard to figure out WHEN I was going to work out.
It was hard to figure out WHEN I could indulge a little.
I guess that's why we call this a "battle."
It's a battle with food.
It's a battle with exercise.
It's a battle with OURSELVES.

I really hope that I'm helping at least one person out there with my journey.
I admire those bloggers who are so faithful in writing their posts.
I admire those people who keep on fighting.

Today's Food
Eating clean.

Today's Activity
7 miles
arms with free weights

Have a happy and healthy day!


Yum Yucky said...

WOW! You've made a fantastic transformation in such a short time! awesome. I saw that Obsessed show only once. I should TiVO it.

Keep up your excellent work! :)

fit girl. said...

You're definitely helping me out on my journey. You're an inspiration. And I thought your post was rather lovely today and it really got me thinking about how much time I am devoting to losing weight and such. How I can't let it interfere with other, more important things in my life.