It's a Beautiful Day

 

I weighed myself on Saturday, and I lost 1.5 pounds!

The past week has been a rollercoaster of emotions and physical strains on me.

I can't believe I ran over 12 miles this past week.

I'm so happy that I could just pass out.

Actually... there have been times when I feel like passing out and throwing up right after my runs.

This is a good thing, I think.

I must look crazy to those people who see me at the end of every run. I'm  nearly in tears. It's not pain that I feel; instead, I feel joy.

I'm so thankful for every ounce of energy (to run and/or work out) that has been given to me every time I ask for it from above.

I used to (and still do for that matter) watch people run as I drove by them and think,

"Gosh... they're in really good shape. Look at them run. I wish I could run like them. They're so cool. They look so determined and strong."

I never thought about how difficult it may have been like for them to start running.

I never imagined that they could've been as big as I was when I started working out.

I've developed a new appreciation for those runners.

Can I call myself a "runner?"

My husband has been telling me that I am "athletic."

I feel funny hearing that.

I was pretty active as a teenager. Although I never participated in sports outside of P.E. (We couldn't afford paying for me to participate in sports.),   I used to love to dance.

My friends and I would come up with our own dance routines and perform at dances and parties.

It was so much fun!

Can I really be called "athletic?"

Can I really be called a "runner?"

It would be nice to think of myself as something other than

"fat, tired, chubby, lazy, etc."

As of today, I am 13.5 pounds away from my goal weight.

As I lose this weight, I can't help but think that I'm still fat.

Yes, I know that I'm not skinny.

Yes, I know I've lost about 30 pounds, but I had this problem before.

I guess that's when you really realize that this "weight" problem isn't just a "weight" problem.

It's also a psychological problem.

I've been told by friends who have lost a lot of weight (50-100 pounds) that it takes a while for your brain to catch up with your body's changes.

The last time I lost about 45 pounds (about 7 years ago),  it took  me a while to "catch up."

I hope it doesn't take too long this time.

Today's Food and Activities

3 mile run

P90X abs (doing this every other day)

1 cup Kashi cereal, 1/2 cup 1% milk

7 almonds

1 english muffin, 2 oz. lean turkey, tomatoes, 2 TBS fat free cream cheese

7 almonds

ground turkey and 2 oz. whole wheat spaghetti with 1/2 cup low fat sauce

1 apple

Have a happy and healthy day!